Annoyed
I had Steve's son Justin last night again. God knows where his dad went to!
Omg...Justin's birthday was the beginning of July...Steve got him a package of bottle rockets for his birthday and that was it. Something that costs around $1.50. All he said was -Enjoy-. WTF IS UP WITH THAT??? Justin was telling me how much of an ass Steve's become and he's very diappointed in his dad. I could tell he was hurt.
So, I took Justin to IHOP last night, this boy eats weird..lol. All he wanted was a plate of bacon and a plate of hashbrowns! I asked him over and over if he wanted anything else and he said he didn't! Then we went to Walmart so I could get some duct tape. This is like 1am in the morning...if not a bit later!
At IHOP Justin was talking to me...telling me how he wishes what happened between Steve and I - didn't happen. And that he could openly come and talk to me besides hiding it because his dad will get pissed off. I told him to come and tell me if and when Steve finds out...and his dad hits him to let me know. I won't be able to stand by and not do anything about that. I'm sorry but I don't know what has happened to Steve and what's going on in his head but he SERIOUSLY needs to get his fuckin priorities straightened out. This shit is BULLSHIT. I love Justin like a son...he's a GOOD boy, very sweet kid. And I did nothing to Steve to warrant this. All I did was try to love that man, try to give him everything I had.
I told Justin, just because his dad and I aren't together, and even though Steve is like how he is, I will always love Justin and be there, even if I'm hundreds of miles away. This shit sucks. I could beat his dad over the head...I wish I could knock some sense into him, but when the time comes that someone does, boy do I wanna be there for that! I wanna be there when he wakes the fuck up and realizes what he's doing. He's hurting himself more in the longrun than he's hurting his son. Justin picks up on all of this. He's been talking with me about it. He just doesn't understand why his dad would do this. Did you know that Justin has only seen his dad FOR ONE HOUR in three weeks...?? OH MY GAWD!! I would NEVER be able to do that to my children. And this is by Steve's choice. Steve has a choice in this, whether to see his son or go gallavanting god knows where. And he chooses the 2nd...wow, what a dad is what I think.
This whole ordeal just pisses me off and makes me want to cry for Justin all at the same time. I was talking to my mom about it and she told me to back off and not see Justin. I can't do that when he calls me at 1am and tells me he's locked out of his house and he doesn't know where his dad is. What the fuck am I supposed to do, just leave him out on the streets after curfew for the cops to pick him up? Let him wander outside, it gets cool at night here! NO I won't just back the fuck off, I'm sorry but I love Justin way too damn much to tell him I can't do that for him. My door will always be open for that boy. God how I hate his father right now. I hate what Steve is putting this boy through. If only Steve could look through my eyes and see what I see when I look at Justin and hear him talking about all this and his dad. But I'm not even sure Steve would wake up then and realize what he's doing. He's pushing his son far far away from him, very quickly.
Steve's girlfriend, who used to be his ex girlfriend...Kathy...bitches and tells everyone the only ppl I can get as friends are Teens and that I hang around with too many teens. Some of the teenagers here, come to me to talk to me about life and stuff. They ask my advice! My babysitter does the same damn thing. She's going through some rough spots in her life, if I can be there for these kids, and make a good impression on them to choose the better part of life, you're damn right I'll hang out with them. If they have one person in their life to look up to, I'll be damn glad to be that person. I'm sorry, but I have a big heart, especially when it comes to kids. I have two children of my own who will be going through the teenage years. This gives me some experience too on how to handle that when mine get older. I think Kathy is envious of what I have and what I can do, and she just needs to back the fuck up off me. Justin is like a son to me, of course I'm going to be there for him. I just wish I knew what to do with Steve...how to impress on him about what he's doing and what it's doing to his son.
Makes me sad...
Omg...Justin's birthday was the beginning of July...Steve got him a package of bottle rockets for his birthday and that was it. Something that costs around $1.50. All he said was -Enjoy-. WTF IS UP WITH THAT??? Justin was telling me how much of an ass Steve's become and he's very diappointed in his dad. I could tell he was hurt.
So, I took Justin to IHOP last night, this boy eats weird..lol. All he wanted was a plate of bacon and a plate of hashbrowns! I asked him over and over if he wanted anything else and he said he didn't! Then we went to Walmart so I could get some duct tape. This is like 1am in the morning...if not a bit later!
At IHOP Justin was talking to me...telling me how he wishes what happened between Steve and I - didn't happen. And that he could openly come and talk to me besides hiding it because his dad will get pissed off. I told him to come and tell me if and when Steve finds out...and his dad hits him to let me know. I won't be able to stand by and not do anything about that. I'm sorry but I don't know what has happened to Steve and what's going on in his head but he SERIOUSLY needs to get his fuckin priorities straightened out. This shit is BULLSHIT. I love Justin like a son...he's a GOOD boy, very sweet kid. And I did nothing to Steve to warrant this. All I did was try to love that man, try to give him everything I had.
I told Justin, just because his dad and I aren't together, and even though Steve is like how he is, I will always love Justin and be there, even if I'm hundreds of miles away. This shit sucks. I could beat his dad over the head...I wish I could knock some sense into him, but when the time comes that someone does, boy do I wanna be there for that! I wanna be there when he wakes the fuck up and realizes what he's doing. He's hurting himself more in the longrun than he's hurting his son. Justin picks up on all of this. He's been talking with me about it. He just doesn't understand why his dad would do this. Did you know that Justin has only seen his dad FOR ONE HOUR in three weeks...?? OH MY GAWD!! I would NEVER be able to do that to my children. And this is by Steve's choice. Steve has a choice in this, whether to see his son or go gallavanting god knows where. And he chooses the 2nd...wow, what a dad is what I think.
This whole ordeal just pisses me off and makes me want to cry for Justin all at the same time. I was talking to my mom about it and she told me to back off and not see Justin. I can't do that when he calls me at 1am and tells me he's locked out of his house and he doesn't know where his dad is. What the fuck am I supposed to do, just leave him out on the streets after curfew for the cops to pick him up? Let him wander outside, it gets cool at night here! NO I won't just back the fuck off, I'm sorry but I love Justin way too damn much to tell him I can't do that for him. My door will always be open for that boy. God how I hate his father right now. I hate what Steve is putting this boy through. If only Steve could look through my eyes and see what I see when I look at Justin and hear him talking about all this and his dad. But I'm not even sure Steve would wake up then and realize what he's doing. He's pushing his son far far away from him, very quickly.
Steve's girlfriend, who used to be his ex girlfriend...Kathy...bitches and tells everyone the only ppl I can get as friends are Teens and that I hang around with too many teens. Some of the teenagers here, come to me to talk to me about life and stuff. They ask my advice! My babysitter does the same damn thing. She's going through some rough spots in her life, if I can be there for these kids, and make a good impression on them to choose the better part of life, you're damn right I'll hang out with them. If they have one person in their life to look up to, I'll be damn glad to be that person. I'm sorry, but I have a big heart, especially when it comes to kids. I have two children of my own who will be going through the teenage years. This gives me some experience too on how to handle that when mine get older. I think Kathy is envious of what I have and what I can do, and she just needs to back the fuck up off me. Justin is like a son to me, of course I'm going to be there for him. I just wish I knew what to do with Steve...how to impress on him about what he's doing and what it's doing to his son.
Makes me sad...