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[mizerywitch]

I have only been sleeping 3 hours at a time...I've been feeling really ill and depressed....I've had bouts of anxiety again.....Brian is metally abusing me......my health is fading and my luck is awful.....I have no clue how to make anything better.....I'm getting too old to deal with this kinda shit.

I was gonna give Kate one of my Spirit Boards to try out with everyone but I already have a bunch of people requesting them. Problem is...I have no will right now to do anything...let alone projects.

Long ago happiness set me free
for only a small time it lived in me
That withered hand tore my seams
and in turn corrupted all my dreams
Peaceful days will not return
the misery in the blackness turns
He is the one, my love my fate
so long since we could recriminate
Heavy heart and forsaken skin
I let someone else back in
Could not forsee this monotony
dreams of death strike over me