Mood Swings
i dont know whats wrong w/ me. i havent felt like this since last yr. and the outcome wasnt good. i just think i need to get away 4 a while. that helped the last time. nothing in my life is good. cori and my parents r always fighting and i always get dragged into the middle of it. and when they're not yelling at her they're yelling at me asking me what im gonna do w/ my life. nothing is rite. i have a meeting w/ mr newlin and cori 2morrow. they're concerned about the choices im making and the ppl i choose to hang out w/. some far today 8 ppl told me laraine was a bad influence. u cant blame her... im a big gurl i make my own choices... if i feel like skipping i will, if i feel like smoking i will, if i feel like screwing every guy/gurl that asks fuck i will. its my life... if i wanna screw it up then goddamn it let me... at least 4 alittle while. im dying my hair((burgundy... the redish pinkish purplish one))... i've been thinking about it 4 a while, but now im gonna actually do it. ::sighs:: my mom thinks im anorexic b/c i eat once or twice aday. i remember i was in the 7th grade. but ne ways im not so dont freak out ((not like ne of u would)). lol my mom found this picture of a naked chick Trouble((Laraine S.)) drew me last week. i thought she found it awhile back but it was another drawing of a... well of a "u know what" lol. but the look on her face was priceless. also today i kept choking on w/e i ate... first it was a teddy graham then it was a fucking grape. hahaha i remember when i was 11 i was opening a peppermint w/ my teeth and the wrapper got stuck to my lip.. and instead of using my hands to get it off i ((well intended to)) blow it off... well i inhaled first and i started to choke on it. i could have died that day.. and wont have had to move to this fucking state (( choked on it the day we were moving)). but i gotta work on my project 4 a class i only went to once... later