is it just me?
ok ok ok ok ok ok, I think I am getting somewhere with this, I have been thinking about it for a while now and can't really get to sleep because of it, but here goes:
I think my problems lately, with me acting weird, are because of my fear of being forgotten. I don't want to be forgotten and yet, I feel that I am sometimes. Now granted, there are people out there that seem to have never forgotten me, namely Josh and Trendun come to mind, but it is still this burning fear, that people that I never thought would forget about me do forget about me. A year ago this time, Jeff Tinnean and Michael Scully were two of the closest people in my life, now I can't talk to them for the life of me....I have tried and tried and tried again, but nothing...ITS SO FRUSTRATING, and heart breaking. I miss them so much and there is nothing that I can do about it, ain't that a shit-sandwich, with some cheese on it. Now, I am dealing with those same things with different people, this fear of being forgotten, and it is just painful, I just don't understand how it happens. I try to be a good friend and do the best I can with the time I've got, but it still happens.
I guess what it all boils down to is that I can only be myself, and if that person is forgettable, then that is regrettable...but if that person is remembrable, then that is a blessing....all things happen for a reason, I have to keep that in mind as well, so hey, whatever.
Remember: Just Beeee yourself, forgotten or remembered.
good talk
I think my problems lately, with me acting weird, are because of my fear of being forgotten. I don't want to be forgotten and yet, I feel that I am sometimes. Now granted, there are people out there that seem to have never forgotten me, namely Josh and Trendun come to mind, but it is still this burning fear, that people that I never thought would forget about me do forget about me. A year ago this time, Jeff Tinnean and Michael Scully were two of the closest people in my life, now I can't talk to them for the life of me....I have tried and tried and tried again, but nothing...ITS SO FRUSTRATING, and heart breaking. I miss them so much and there is nothing that I can do about it, ain't that a shit-sandwich, with some cheese on it. Now, I am dealing with those same things with different people, this fear of being forgotten, and it is just painful, I just don't understand how it happens. I try to be a good friend and do the best I can with the time I've got, but it still happens.
I guess what it all boils down to is that I can only be myself, and if that person is forgettable, then that is regrettable...but if that person is remembrable, then that is a blessing....all things happen for a reason, I have to keep that in mind as well, so hey, whatever.
Remember: Just Beeee yourself, forgotten or remembered.
good talk