Feb 19, 2005 16:36
So i was basically told that if it werent for me everything would be ok between the two of them.
Screw you.
Just because you start off the sentence with "I dont want you to feel bad BUT..." or "Its nothing against you its just that YOU..." or "I dont want you to think i resent you BUT..." does not make the insults that follow hurt any less.
I dont even know why i let what you say bother me so much. Maybe its because i know your doing it on purpose. Or maybe its because i know i have to be nice after that because im afraid of what your going to do. Or maybe its because i know that your tears make people give you what you want and i dont want to have to leave the room or change what is going on because your feelings are hurt.
Greaatttt you threw it in my face that you knew her way longer then me. A year WOO FOR YOU! Guess what I dont care. Time has nothing to do with it. 8 days was quite long enough for me. 8 days was perfect for me in fact. And were going to be together for a lot longer. Its not a competition. There are different types of friends. And there are different types of feelings. I love her. And I am In love with her. Im sorry if that hurts you but its too bad.
Nothing that you said to me was worth anything. You said nothing that let me know you were listening to me. If you need someone to put down so you dont feel so damn bad about yourself and someone to complain and whine to then buy a puppy. THey dont respond. When you talk to me i try to make you feel better. I try to tell you how i feel. I try to tell you that what your saying hurts me. You dont listen at all. In fact you ignore it. Or bring it back to you. there is a word for that.
Your feelings and issues with her and your life are completely separate and have nothing to do with me and definitely have nothing to do with my relationship with her. AT ALL.
Its none of your business how much i like her. how much i love her. If she loves me. If we talk. What we do. Or if your name is mentioned. It is none of you business at all. We chose to include you because I for one thought it would help you understand you werent being replaced. It would also be nice to be able to talk to our friends. Thats what friends do. But you are making it quite clear to me that you are not able to handle this.
I dont even know what the problem is and if i dont know that then i cant possibly know what the solution could be. What I know is that i am tired of being blamed. TELLING SOMEONE... "I DONT BLAME YOU BUT IF YOU WERENT AROUND IT WOULDNT BE LIKE THIS" IS BLAMING ME.
dont be so damn presumptuous. It has nothing to do with me. Stop looking for a scapegoat and take responsibility for what is going on. People cant change things they dont like about their lives if they dont take responsibility for themselves. You can only be hurt if you let yourself be.
Its good advice and i am going to take it myself.