dreams and desire
okay, i feel weird writing this down when i have to study for my orals tomorrow for my most favorite subject of all time (and i'm not being sarcastic).
last night (october 12, 2006 -> yeah, i want to remember this date FOREVER), i had a two-part dream...
the first was about my dad and i... we were talking... he started talking to me first... and i was replying... and we had a normal father and daughter relationship...
this might seem strange, but my dad and i have not been speaking to each other for more than a week now... i don't want to go into any more details (since it pains me so), but let's just say i was at fault...
but for some weird, stubborn (yef, that's me!) reason, i don't wanna make the first move... so now we're not talking at all...
i can't even bind my readings in his office (not that that's the only thing that's bothering me... i mean, i do love him... he's my dad T_T)...
MOVING ON...
okay, and this was the second part of my dream (and i wanna pee everytime i think about it)...
wait i'll go pee first (kekekeke)...
but before anything else, let me just tell you that i have the worst memory ever (why i went to law school, knowing there are a lot of memory work, still baffles me... T_T)... so i really cannot remember in detail what i dreamt about, but it's just that this was one of the nicest (not to mention hottest... rawr!) dreams i've had of late, so i wanted to preserve it, even if it's just in snippets...
okay, here it goes...
wait wait i'll pee again... *goes off to the toilet*
hokay, back to business...
well, it was late morning and i was just hanging around, when suddenly someone calls me and tells me that i've won tickets to a concert at around noontime with a backstage pass...
so i go to the venue really early, and what do i find out? IT'S A SHINHWA CONCERT!!! i was sooo surprised that i was speechless as someone was leading me BACKSTAGE...
kekeke okay this is a funny part... it turns out that yeah, i have a backstage pass... but that's just it... a backstage pass... meaning i wasn't actually going to watch the concert in front, but i'll be behind the performance stage the whole time!!!
okay, just some comments... i feel stupid dreaming such a glorious dream when i can't even really control what's happening... i mean BACKSTAGE?!? i didn't even get to watch their perfs!?! T_T but dreamers can't be chosers...
I KNOW...
okay, anyway, so while they were performing, i was just behind the stage... keke but the thing is, i was able to interact with all of them whenever some of them were not performing... keke my constant companion was eric... we played marbles, jack en poy, and other weird games... junjin kept appearing and disappearing, but he played with us as well... i think i remember playing with dongwan also, and then talking with hyesung and minwoo...
hmmm... i didn't get to interact with andy... hmmm, i wonder why?...
anyway, i was having so much fun with eric (okay, i think my brain is just being practical and decided to choose eric as the person most likely to be a good companion since we can actually talk... in ENGLISH...) that before i knew it, the concert was over and they were all saying goodbye to me... (okay, weird thing is, i was with eric as the rest were going in from the stage... so i'm thinking "so i guess eric didn't perform?" what a really stupid dream i had!!!)...
so i was there squatting (because eric and i were playing tic-tac-toe on the floor), all googly eyed as each member passed by me waving goodbye... wait i don't really remember andy... (could this be during the 5th jib? my brain's all messed up!!! don't kill me angel)...
and the next thing i know, i was already outside of the venue, squinting because of the bright sun... then someone asks me if i had taken a picture with them or had asked for their autographs...
and i blinked... cause i didn't do either one!!! and considering i had a camera... (weird, weird, weird)... i didn't make "memories"...
so i ran back to the concert hall, but so many fangirls were blocking the way... but because i was small... i managed to near the backstage door, and i was looking for them but they had already gone to eat out...
so i tried going to where they were eating...
but in the end, so many fangirls were already there (i guess i'm not a good stalker, even in my dreams...) that i ended up being one of the many fangirls there...
just a small face in the crowd...
okay, that wasn't such a happy dream after all...
my bladder can rest in peace now...
hmmm... i'm thinking maybe i miss them?
GOD, i wish this sem would just end...
one week to go before sem break!!! yipee!!!
last night (october 12, 2006 -> yeah, i want to remember this date FOREVER), i had a two-part dream...
the first was about my dad and i... we were talking... he started talking to me first... and i was replying... and we had a normal father and daughter relationship...
this might seem strange, but my dad and i have not been speaking to each other for more than a week now... i don't want to go into any more details (since it pains me so), but let's just say i was at fault...
but for some weird, stubborn (yef, that's me!) reason, i don't wanna make the first move... so now we're not talking at all...
i can't even bind my readings in his office (not that that's the only thing that's bothering me... i mean, i do love him... he's my dad T_T)...
MOVING ON...
okay, and this was the second part of my dream (and i wanna pee everytime i think about it)...
wait i'll go pee first (kekekeke)...
but before anything else, let me just tell you that i have the worst memory ever (why i went to law school, knowing there are a lot of memory work, still baffles me... T_T)... so i really cannot remember in detail what i dreamt about, but it's just that this was one of the nicest (not to mention hottest... rawr!) dreams i've had of late, so i wanted to preserve it, even if it's just in snippets...
okay, here it goes...
wait wait i'll pee again... *goes off to the toilet*
hokay, back to business...
well, it was late morning and i was just hanging around, when suddenly someone calls me and tells me that i've won tickets to a concert at around noontime with a backstage pass...
so i go to the venue really early, and what do i find out? IT'S A SHINHWA CONCERT!!! i was sooo surprised that i was speechless as someone was leading me BACKSTAGE...
kekeke okay this is a funny part... it turns out that yeah, i have a backstage pass... but that's just it... a backstage pass... meaning i wasn't actually going to watch the concert in front, but i'll be behind the performance stage the whole time!!!
okay, just some comments... i feel stupid dreaming such a glorious dream when i can't even really control what's happening... i mean BACKSTAGE?!? i didn't even get to watch their perfs!?! T_T but dreamers can't be chosers...
I KNOW...
okay, anyway, so while they were performing, i was just behind the stage... keke but the thing is, i was able to interact with all of them whenever some of them were not performing... keke my constant companion was eric... we played marbles, jack en poy, and other weird games... junjin kept appearing and disappearing, but he played with us as well... i think i remember playing with dongwan also, and then talking with hyesung and minwoo...
hmmm... i didn't get to interact with andy... hmmm, i wonder why?...
anyway, i was having so much fun with eric (okay, i think my brain is just being practical and decided to choose eric as the person most likely to be a good companion since we can actually talk... in ENGLISH...) that before i knew it, the concert was over and they were all saying goodbye to me... (okay, weird thing is, i was with eric as the rest were going in from the stage... so i'm thinking "so i guess eric didn't perform?" what a really stupid dream i had!!!)...
so i was there squatting (because eric and i were playing tic-tac-toe on the floor), all googly eyed as each member passed by me waving goodbye... wait i don't really remember andy... (could this be during the 5th jib? my brain's all messed up!!! don't kill me angel)...
and the next thing i know, i was already outside of the venue, squinting because of the bright sun... then someone asks me if i had taken a picture with them or had asked for their autographs...
and i blinked... cause i didn't do either one!!! and considering i had a camera... (weird, weird, weird)... i didn't make "memories"...
so i ran back to the concert hall, but so many fangirls were blocking the way... but because i was small... i managed to near the backstage door, and i was looking for them but they had already gone to eat out...
so i tried going to where they were eating...
but in the end, so many fangirls were already there (i guess i'm not a good stalker, even in my dreams...) that i ended up being one of the many fangirls there...
just a small face in the crowd...
okay, that wasn't such a happy dream after all...
my bladder can rest in peace now...
hmmm... i'm thinking maybe i miss them?
GOD, i wish this sem would just end...
one week to go before sem break!!! yipee!!!