where?

[miyamoriyoh]

where should i go from here? what should i do next? time is running and it wont wait for those who lingers. i just want to escape from this vagueness, at least be clear of what i want to do and can do. 20 years already and i feel like i can continue my life just like it has always been. but sometimes i just wish there was someone other than my family and friends that i can talk to. that i can cry with. just this one person. maybe those times are when i'm weak and lonely. starts to happen more often. or is it that i'm actually a person that needs attention? maybe its the theory that human are social animals and that we all need to be in groups and cannot be alone.
so many things to do from now, but i just dont know where to start. one more month and i'm back to my normal life. don't want to leave my home, family, and friends. but i just have to. maybe if i go back all of this feelings will be gone.
just wanna say i love my family and friends.