Oh my God...
I just found out what I am. My gender issue...it has a name. I'm not a weird, switchy androgyne after all. I'm bigendered.
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I've also found out my little psychological issue that's been haunting me with those dizzy spells for the past few years, interestingly enough, from a post in the bigender community here on LJ where someone described pretty much exactly how I feel, even down to the fact that I identify best with gay/bosexual men who skirt gender borders (*cough*Mello*cough*)
The disorder(s) is/are depersonalization/derealization. Luckily, they're fairly common, and actually have causes that I pinpointed almost immediately. They (I'm not sure which one better describes me yet) basically mean that you feel a bit out of touch with life. The feeling of life moving without me that I've been really feeling this past couple of years? The numbness of emotion that I've been...well, not feeling? The fact that it's hard for me to cry a lot of times, or feel really profound emotion outside of fiction? It's all there. Holy fucking shit.
I'm in shock. I've found it. I finally think I've fucking found it.
Wikipedia is your Friend
I've also found out my little psychological issue that's been haunting me with those dizzy spells for the past few years, interestingly enough, from a post in the bigender community here on LJ where someone described pretty much exactly how I feel, even down to the fact that I identify best with gay/bosexual men who skirt gender borders (*cough*Mello*cough*)
The disorder(s) is/are depersonalization/derealization. Luckily, they're fairly common, and actually have causes that I pinpointed almost immediately. They (I'm not sure which one better describes me yet) basically mean that you feel a bit out of touch with life. The feeling of life moving without me that I've been really feeling this past couple of years? The numbness of emotion that I've been...well, not feeling? The fact that it's hard for me to cry a lot of times, or feel really profound emotion outside of fiction? It's all there. Holy fucking shit.
I'm in shock. I've found it. I finally think I've fucking found it.