So, I feel like I'm about to stumble upon another thing I want to make a point on, but I can't seem to really focus on it (maybe it's that poor little shrimpie I ate about 3 hours ago ._
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A lot of what you're saying makes plenty of sense. However I'd like to interject here that I had to grow up essentially independent in a chaotic, abusive family with a mother, a father, as well as an older and younger brother. People often describe me as too wise for my years and always have, whatever that really means.
If anything it deals with my nature and personality as being Independent in general though. Through countless experiences, usually negative, that I had in my life I developed while always keeping hope and this led my way for knowledge and "wisdom" or general maturity that I always found lacking from my peers surrounding me. (Or maybe it deals with my piscean nature, aha slight humor slight seriousness.) It's always bothered me. I look at 14 and 15yr olds now and I'm horribly concerned. I never acted like that or thought that way when I was that age. I'm only 18, but I hear people talking about how they wish they could be kids again when they only thing they had to worry about some miniscule issue, instead of understanding of how aware they're capable of being at this point in their lives and how they can turn all of that negative energy into positive energy and learn lessons if they try. Expand their minds.
I don't think I quite made the points I meant to either. I agree with the parent child relationship, it's all a vicious cycle. I however also know many many people who are becoming more aware and more knowledgeable, so at least rest a little in knowing you're not the only one thinking about this stuff! Even if we don't make up a very large percentage.
Education is such a big issue, but that leads into another issue linked to more issues of so many things that are going on right now in this world, many of them very messed up.
I've also always favored the tribe setting of a community.
There's just so much to speak about... but please keep posting, I enjoy reading your thoughts.
I also was unsure of how to type this without sounding conceited :/ It's hard to state how others or I feel about myself without coming off that way. It was not intended if it did.
Thank you for commenting. You know, you sound a lot like me. I had a somewhat abusive family with a younger brother who ended up being very violent and abusive as well, and by mother had always been a chaotic person. My parents divorced and my father became severely alcoholic and I've had many traumatizing experiences with that. I'd always been teased, avoided, or abused in school, sometimes even by teachers. The thing I've found out is that even with people in the same exact situations as I have been, they don't come out the same at all. My brother for example, has ADHD and got into the whole bad-ass gang thing. He never joined a gang but he has always been skirting around that fine line. On the other hand, I had a few friends throughout my years in gradeschool who were very shy and quiet and kept to themselves. I found out later that they had grown up in the same situation I had, and had even been picked on in school.
You and I seem to have the same thing going on, this is something I just realized now, then. The other day I realized that another girl who I was friends with in school had gone through the same stuff, but she was one of those shy friends I had. The difference between us and them is that we were aware, for some reason, of the interconnectedness of our experiences and our growth. We were not simply a product of our surroundings, in other words. "This is the mark of mastery- this is what was meant by 'Become a master of your surroundings.'" (just popped in my head now).
For whatever reason, especially in this generation, it seems as if there are a bunch of people like us, who, regardless of their situation, have awareness right from the start. I have some fantasies as to what our origins are, but the truth is that we're all connected and part of the same consciousness, so origins don't really matter that much. But our purpose here and now, however, DOES, and I think that's my point in making these journal entries. I'm trying to bring us together because I truly believe that now, if ever, is the time to start bringing a change. You said so yourself that a lot of what I noted here you agreed with. (To me, this isn't even my opinion. These are things I've simply observed - there is no preference in the matter. I see where humanity wants to go as a whole, and I observe that they're not going in that direction. It's like if someone were heading to San Antonio and said they wanted to go to Seattle, if they asked you for directions you'd tell them they were going the wrong way. There's no opinion or preference there either. XD I think that's why it is so hard to get through to some people. We've been taught to identify conflict as something to do with opinions. I challenge someone's current awareness and they fight me saying that it's a matter of opinion and I need to respect that. I have no opinion or preference on what other people think, honestly, it's more that I'm observing a thing for what it is, and that person is denying it because it negates their current comfortable living.....ok, I'm really talking about this argument I had with someone about cutting down trees for Christmas and how it's massacre. There is so little awareness of trees as a living SPECIES, not just "trees", that no one cares. Most people don't even take the time to really appreciate the sacrifice of the tree. It just really is starting to horrify me.)
But yeah, I think it's time to really start talking about these things with each other, if for no other reason than to raise the consciousness of our planet. COllective consciousness is infinitely powerful... running out of things to say XD
People often describe me as too wise for my years and always have, whatever that really means.
If anything it deals with my nature and personality as being Independent in general though. Through countless experiences, usually negative, that I had in my life I developed while always keeping hope and this led my way for knowledge and "wisdom" or general maturity that I always found lacking from my peers surrounding me. (Or maybe it deals with my piscean nature, aha slight humor slight seriousness.)
It's always bothered me. I look at 14 and 15yr olds now and I'm horribly concerned. I never acted like that or thought that way when I was that age. I'm only 18, but I hear people talking about how they wish they could be kids again when they only thing they had to worry about some miniscule issue, instead of understanding of how aware they're capable of being at this point in their lives and how they can turn all of that negative energy into positive energy and learn lessons if they try. Expand their minds.
I don't think I quite made the points I meant to either. I agree with the parent child relationship, it's all a vicious cycle.
I however also know many many people who are becoming more aware and more knowledgeable, so at least rest a little in knowing you're not the only one thinking about this stuff! Even if we don't make up a very large percentage.
Education is such a big issue, but that leads into another issue linked to more issues of so many things that are going on right now in this world, many of them very messed up.
I've also always favored the tribe setting of a community.
There's just so much to speak about... but please keep posting, I enjoy reading your thoughts.
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You and I seem to have the same thing going on, this is something I just realized now, then. The other day I realized that another girl who I was friends with in school had gone through the same stuff, but she was one of those shy friends I had. The difference between us and them is that we were aware, for some reason, of the interconnectedness of our experiences and our growth. We were not simply a product of our surroundings, in other words. "This is the mark of mastery- this is what was meant by 'Become a master of your surroundings.'" (just popped in my head now).
For whatever reason, especially in this generation, it seems as if there are a bunch of people like us, who, regardless of their situation, have awareness right from the start. I have some fantasies as to what our origins are, but the truth is that we're all connected and part of the same consciousness, so origins don't really matter that much. But our purpose here and now, however, DOES, and I think that's my point in making these journal entries. I'm trying to bring us together because I truly believe that now, if ever, is the time to start bringing a change. You said so yourself that a lot of what I noted here you agreed with. (To me, this isn't even my opinion. These are things I've simply observed - there is no preference in the matter. I see where humanity wants to go as a whole, and I observe that they're not going in that direction. It's like if someone were heading to San Antonio and said they wanted to go to Seattle, if they asked you for directions you'd tell them they were going the wrong way. There's no opinion or preference there either. XD I think that's why it is so hard to get through to some people. We've been taught to identify conflict as something to do with opinions. I challenge someone's current awareness and they fight me saying that it's a matter of opinion and I need to respect that. I have no opinion or preference on what other people think, honestly, it's more that I'm observing a thing for what it is, and that person is denying it because it negates their current comfortable living.....ok, I'm really talking about this argument I had with someone about cutting down trees for Christmas and how it's massacre. There is so little awareness of trees as a living SPECIES, not just "trees", that no one cares. Most people don't even take the time to really appreciate the sacrifice of the tree. It just really is starting to horrify me.)
But yeah, I think it's time to really start talking about these things with each other, if for no other reason than to raise the consciousness of our planet. COllective consciousness is infinitely powerful... running out of things to say XD
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