wow you sound a lot like my friend She mentioned you in her comment a couple of times on this page, you should read it! XD
But I know how that is - it's actually a very feminine thing to adjust quickly. Women go through a lot of changes in their lifetime so adjustment is built into their brains and bodies. A lot of women end up staying in abusive relatoinships for years because of this too. It just becomes normal. That's why it's important to remain consciously aware of yourself and your life and your dreams and all of that. Take time to get away from your everyday by spending time in nature, so you can get back to your natural sense of self, and then see how you feel when you go back to your everyday.
And you know, I was made fun of all through my life too, right up till college, and even in college I had some abusive friendships too. That never stopped me, though. I honestly would sort of differentiate myself from that and often go "why are they making fun of me T__T" instead of internalizing it and feeling bad. Of course I had times when I was really sad and depressed but I dunno... I was always turned on, and never let that turn me off.
I've learned to let that bounce off of my outer shell too. Now if someone laughs at me for whatever reason, I simply can't be bothered to feel bad about it anymore XD
I do get away from it all every once in a while (probably a sort of mental reflex), and if I can't actually go outside (weather), I just escape to the better world in my imagination. And yes, I know when to come back from that place. In fact, I figure I break up my Imagination into two sides: 1: Fun Time: I just dream away about anything and everything. 2: Utopia: the perfect world. Then I think of how I can make the actual world a bit more like my Utopia. Escapism can be healthy, if you use it correctly ;)
And I've read Fairydustedhope's comment and replied to her ;)
But I know how that is - it's actually a very feminine thing to adjust quickly. Women go through a lot of changes in their lifetime so adjustment is built into their brains and bodies. A lot of women end up staying in abusive relatoinships for years because of this too. It just becomes normal. That's why it's important to remain consciously aware of yourself and your life and your dreams and all of that. Take time to get away from your everyday by spending time in nature, so you can get back to your natural sense of self, and then see how you feel when you go back to your everyday.
And you know, I was made fun of all through my life too, right up till college, and even in college I had some abusive friendships too. That never stopped me, though. I honestly would sort of differentiate myself from that and often go "why are they making fun of me T__T" instead of internalizing it and feeling bad. Of course I had times when I was really sad and depressed but I dunno... I was always turned on, and never let that turn me off.
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I do get away from it all every once in a while (probably a sort of mental reflex), and if I can't actually go outside (weather), I just escape to the better world in my imagination. And yes, I know when to come back from that place. In fact, I figure I break up my Imagination into two sides:
1: Fun Time: I just dream away about anything and everything.
2: Utopia: the perfect world. Then I think of how I can make the actual world a bit more like my Utopia.
Escapism can be healthy, if you use it correctly ;)
And I've read Fairydustedhope's comment and replied to her ;)
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