I've done a personality test disorder which I found from a random blog..
here are my results from the test;;
the result clearly stated that I have "avoidant personality disorder"..
now, what is "avoidant personality disorder"?
"Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence."
It is freakingly correct in explaining myself
... now, here comes the explanation why I would like to have a work in a museum.. but a work as a museum curator needs suitable qualification in that field.. and it took me long enough to finally realize the fact
and regarding the social relationship (as in the more special relationship), I WANT one!!!!