Sep 30, 2006 14:25
Well, school has been going well... I actually really do like all my classes, except my math class.. It's soo boring, but it's a good refresher class for me.
I like my Psyc class, cuz I already know most of what he's talking about. My Psyc teacher last year thought out of college curiculum. I love my Drawing class, my drawing is getting better, I'm still learning to see things in a different light..and catching them at an angle..but one day maybe I'll get it...
My Trim&Fit class is nice, it's working!lol. I've been working alot too.. It's actually been nice.. I really do love my job.. I like the girls I work with.
But tonight we have inventory, and i have to work before that, only for like 3hrs but I'm soo not looking forward to it... I get to bring Brianna with me and Nate, so it shouldnt be too bad, one can hope..
Things between Nate and I have been going good.. I really do love him... but apart of me I think is always going to have this feeling of lonelyness... maybe its from my real mom and the since of not always having to true feeling of love, trust, and belonging.. It's like there's some kind of distance there.. like I will never be good enough.. and it scares me....
Gio and I have kinda been talking..but it's always an off and on thing, with us trying this "friends" thing out.. we both know it will never work, but stupidly we both kinda try anyways... why? I know we will both always love eachother,but my heart is always going to not believe him or his feelings. Life makes me wonder what brings two people together...?why? I will always hurt from his desietfull move's, but I will always want answers... I just want to be normal...
And I'm trying to have that with Nate....I jsut pray it's not something else I will fail at.