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alright.
so yeah. I meant to write something in here but I can't seem to put it into words, so I'll just write tons of sentences and hopefully it will make sense to someone. I want to go to the doctors because I think I need happy pills. When I'm not with my friends I'm just this blob of sadness. I can't even sit through a dinner with my family without my eyes tearing up for no reason at all. When they ask what's wrong, I say my eyes water because of my makeup. I want so many things but I have no money. I have a slit in my thumb that is very deep from a damn knife and a bagel. I want a boy. I wish there were more hours in the day to sleep. I wish I could stop feeling like this. Harry potter is amazing. I have way too many thoughts in my head at once. I want my family to have money so that I can get my tattoo. I'm tired. I'm going to sleep.
Happy new years, everyone.
My Vacation has been mostly fun...I've had a lot of fun, I've gotten extremely angry to the point where I punched a wall and my knuckles almost bled, I've realized that when it comes to alcohol, that I need it in my life because it makes me feel amazing, and most of all I've realized that alcoholics will do ANYTHING to get some fucking booze...even ditch their best friend and go to a party they were supposed to go to together. I still have no idea why she would neglect to call me, she obviously didn't want me there for some odd reason....even though I was the one who got her invited to the parties in the fucking first place. I guess it doesn't matter who some of your friends are.
so yeah. I meant to write something in here but I can't seem to put it into words, so I'll just write tons of sentences and hopefully it will make sense to someone. I want to go to the doctors because I think I need happy pills. When I'm not with my friends I'm just this blob of sadness. I can't even sit through a dinner with my family without my eyes tearing up for no reason at all. When they ask what's wrong, I say my eyes water because of my makeup. I want so many things but I have no money. I have a slit in my thumb that is very deep from a damn knife and a bagel. I want a boy. I wish there were more hours in the day to sleep. I wish I could stop feeling like this. Harry potter is amazing. I have way too many thoughts in my head at once. I want my family to have money so that I can get my tattoo. I'm tired. I'm going to sleep.
Happy new years, everyone.
My Vacation has been mostly fun...I've had a lot of fun, I've gotten extremely angry to the point where I punched a wall and my knuckles almost bled, I've realized that when it comes to alcohol, that I need it in my life because it makes me feel amazing, and most of all I've realized that alcoholics will do ANYTHING to get some fucking booze...even ditch their best friend and go to a party they were supposed to go to together. I still have no idea why she would neglect to call me, she obviously didn't want me there for some odd reason....even though I was the one who got her invited to the parties in the fucking first place. I guess it doesn't matter who some of your friends are.