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I was just looking at an old friends journal and seemed to get really depressed. Just seeing how much we used to hang out, and how good of friends we were really put a damper on my mood. About a year ago today it stated that we hung out in almost every entry that this person wrote. We were so happy then. Ugh. I'm sick of looking at things that remind me of this person and make me miss them as a friend. I can't wait around forever for this person to change, and I know that. I keep this weird sort of belief that things will change, and one day they'll be standing at my door waiting to hang out like old times.
We have hung out lately, but everytime it seemed to make me more upset. Maybe it's because we hung out and got high and barely talked to each other afterwards. Believe me, there are many things I have to talk to this person about, but this person won't trust me anymore and tell me what is wrong. I don't like sitting back and watching this person slowly slip through the cracks, but I feel like it's happening. I want to help, but this person isn't giving me anything to work with here.
No. Wait. All I have to say is that I'm through with sitting around waiting for you to come to me with your problems like you used to. Things change, and I guess our friendship was only a single period in you're life and I can deal with that. If you don't want my friendship anymore please just tell me, because it's too frustrating sitting here waiting for you to IM me for once, instead of me IMing you. It's too frustrating waiting for you to ask to hang out...without smoking anything...it's basically just too frustrating walking by you in school and having no idea what you're thinking, or how you're feeling...or if we're even god damn friends anymore.
I have a feeling we'll never be as close as we used to.
Wow I just rambled for no reason...oh well...that didn't make sense at all, but I needed to get it out .
We have hung out lately, but everytime it seemed to make me more upset. Maybe it's because we hung out and got high and barely talked to each other afterwards. Believe me, there are many things I have to talk to this person about, but this person won't trust me anymore and tell me what is wrong. I don't like sitting back and watching this person slowly slip through the cracks, but I feel like it's happening. I want to help, but this person isn't giving me anything to work with here.
No. Wait. All I have to say is that I'm through with sitting around waiting for you to come to me with your problems like you used to. Things change, and I guess our friendship was only a single period in you're life and I can deal with that. If you don't want my friendship anymore please just tell me, because it's too frustrating sitting here waiting for you to IM me for once, instead of me IMing you. It's too frustrating waiting for you to ask to hang out...without smoking anything...it's basically just too frustrating walking by you in school and having no idea what you're thinking, or how you're feeling...or if we're even god damn friends anymore.
I have a feeling we'll never be as close as we used to.
Wow I just rambled for no reason...oh well...that didn't make sense at all, but I needed to get it out .