Heart is on the floor, why don't you step on it..
Life is weird for me right now. I don't like where I am, of course..but I'm in a weird way happy. Then again I'm pretty miserable, hah. So maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. Only a few people make me happy anymore and I really wish I could surround myself with these people everyday of my life. I can't do that, because most of them live somewhere else. Casey in milly and the coast, Kess in boston, Travis on li(only travis because when he and I hang out I laugh until I have to pee.) and Jen will be leaving me in a month and a half. I am happy to say that three very important friends do live in my same town, as of right now anyway. Jen and I were talking about my future not too long ago and she mentioned me possibly living with aunt martttinnni. I'd be very down with that, except I really want to be up north still. I'm going to start applying to schools again when august rolls around. I only applied to one last time and that was a mistake I made. I need backup plans and such. I wish my papa was here, because I know that he could help me with college stuff. You know how that goes. I just deleted an entire paragraph about how I hate my drinking problem, hah.
I just wish certain things were different right now, but everyone does I'm sure. I am glad to see Casey so happy right now. I wish that things would work out with Jen and her mom. I want Clista to not be so bummed out about her car too, specially considering her birthday is tomorrow.
Hah. Last night Jen and I got very wasted and I had to be the adult and sober up so I could take care of her. It's night like that, that make me realize how much I've missed her. For a while I felt like she and I were going separate ways and that was VERY upsetting to me. Now I feel like everything will be okay. I told her she could live with me again, if she needed. She does have her own room in my house, hah.
I need to work, I need to work, I need to work.
I want to be in new york right now, bleh.
Or boston.
somewhere.
Ew, caring about a boy SUCKS, but seeing your best friend fall off your bed is a very classic moment.
I just wish certain things were different right now, but everyone does I'm sure. I am glad to see Casey so happy right now. I wish that things would work out with Jen and her mom. I want Clista to not be so bummed out about her car too, specially considering her birthday is tomorrow.
Hah. Last night Jen and I got very wasted and I had to be the adult and sober up so I could take care of her. It's night like that, that make me realize how much I've missed her. For a while I felt like she and I were going separate ways and that was VERY upsetting to me. Now I feel like everything will be okay. I told her she could live with me again, if she needed. She does have her own room in my house, hah.
I need to work, I need to work, I need to work.
I want to be in new york right now, bleh.
Or boston.
somewhere.
Ew, caring about a boy SUCKS, but seeing your best friend fall off your bed is a very classic moment.