driving away from the wreck of the day.

[mixtapebarbie]

wow kso, i wish i knew what to say but i dont. march break was really good, an escape from all the sad. but now that i'm back at school, its all sort of rushing back and i wish i wasn't such a baby, and i wish that i could just wave a wand and be in a good mood, but i can't. and all my friends are so happy, with good reason, and im happy too, but it almost feels like im being fake happy to put myself at ease. which, really when you think about it, makes no sense but thats what it feels like. and school is so so so messed up, and the people are all happyakwardhappy and the walls are all memoriesakwardmemories and i want everything just to go away for a while. but its alright, cause im going to mexico with mimi and that makes me smile, like really smilesmilesmile and today ian made me laugh, like really laughlaughlaugh.

ian (scottish accent) : i want a girlfriend named patty.
me: haha.
ian (accent) o'brian, if its possible. and she has to make potatoes, and drink my whiskey.
me: wtf? haha.
ian (accent): and kiss my white scottish ass.
me&mimi&jacob: hahaha.