hope that you can keep it, my dirty little secret ...
*-* I cant remember the last time i went iceskating ... its been a couple of years atleast ... i really missing being out there. its so relaxing ... i cant hear anything but my skates scraping against the ice and the cold air feels so good to me. I can just close my eyes and tilt my head back...and i feel like im flying. Its the only thing right now that can make me forget everything thats bothering me ... itd help me get away ... even for a moment ...
--- so if anyone wants to get together, we can find a few more people who can go, its be a lot of fun. theres plenty of ways to get a hold of me.
*-* Theres this song at work i always hear and i really like it. its this nice slow song but i cannot remember the words for the life of me. it came to me a couple nights ago but didnt think to write it down and i forgot. and i dont work till next saturday...
*-* I wish I could find someone to talk to, someone who could help me...atleast just listen to me. Its hard to try to talk to anyone I know ... parents will just get on my case and whont take time to understand what im trying to say and friends just see it as not a big deal because they dont know how im feeling. i feel like im trapped in quicksand...i cant get myself out from my own thoughts and feelings ... time just never seems to slow down and for once i wish it could just STOP ... but i know it cant.
...i need to help myself...i know i do i just dont know how. lately my self confidence and self esteem has been extrEmely low. i need to change a lot about myself, inside and out. it sucks when i look in the mirror and the first thing that comes to mind is -disgrace- ...
--- so if anyone wants to get together, we can find a few more people who can go, its be a lot of fun. theres plenty of ways to get a hold of me.
*-* Theres this song at work i always hear and i really like it. its this nice slow song but i cannot remember the words for the life of me. it came to me a couple nights ago but didnt think to write it down and i forgot. and i dont work till next saturday...
*-* I wish I could find someone to talk to, someone who could help me...atleast just listen to me. Its hard to try to talk to anyone I know ... parents will just get on my case and whont take time to understand what im trying to say and friends just see it as not a big deal because they dont know how im feeling. i feel like im trapped in quicksand...i cant get myself out from my own thoughts and feelings ... time just never seems to slow down and for once i wish it could just STOP ... but i know it cant.
...i need to help myself...i know i do i just dont know how. lately my self confidence and self esteem has been extrEmely low. i need to change a lot about myself, inside and out. it sucks when i look in the mirror and the first thing that comes to mind is -disgrace- ...