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pretty much nothing to do today...as far as i know...
I've been doing so well since me and Jeff broke up...Ive seemed to be much happier. But I can't help but stop and think sometimes about him and how I what I could have done to prevent tension during that week that dragged on not knowing...
I can move on but it wouldnt be smart right now since I know all my feelings for him and I dont want to jump into another relationship again. Im just gonna let life play it self out and and the end of the summer...if I stil have feelings for him...maybe ill try to do something.
I just keep getting these thoughts that we werent meant to actually break up like this. Never talking or seeing eachother. But I look back and know it was a stressful time for both of us but we should have tried to be there for eachother but i dont know.
The pain only comes whenever I see him. Its been almost a year now that we met. Ill never forget the shaving cream fight we all had. I have the picture of me and Jeff covered in head to toe with shaving cream. I remember us jumping into my pool filling it with shaving cream but atleast we were somewhat clean after lol.
I miss him like crazy as well as my parents and sisters. My mom always brings up him being funny around here. Just being himself what was what I loved most about him.
But ya know....even if its not meant to be and we never talk again atleast I have all those memories. They are nice to look back on and smile at. Thats what got me through. The only thing Im disapointed about is that both our familys love to go sledding...and together, we never did.
But I've learned from my relationship & breakup with Jon and then Jeff...what I want and expect out of a realtionship. People say you usually date or find interest in guys that remind you somewhat of your dad which was true in both relationships. But thats besides what I was talking about...
and im done here...just had that on my mind and i have nothin else to do.
I've been doing so well since me and Jeff broke up...Ive seemed to be much happier. But I can't help but stop and think sometimes about him and how I what I could have done to prevent tension during that week that dragged on not knowing...
I can move on but it wouldnt be smart right now since I know all my feelings for him and I dont want to jump into another relationship again. Im just gonna let life play it self out and and the end of the summer...if I stil have feelings for him...maybe ill try to do something.
I just keep getting these thoughts that we werent meant to actually break up like this. Never talking or seeing eachother. But I look back and know it was a stressful time for both of us but we should have tried to be there for eachother but i dont know.
The pain only comes whenever I see him. Its been almost a year now that we met. Ill never forget the shaving cream fight we all had. I have the picture of me and Jeff covered in head to toe with shaving cream. I remember us jumping into my pool filling it with shaving cream but atleast we were somewhat clean after lol.
I miss him like crazy as well as my parents and sisters. My mom always brings up him being funny around here. Just being himself what was what I loved most about him.
But ya know....even if its not meant to be and we never talk again atleast I have all those memories. They are nice to look back on and smile at. Thats what got me through. The only thing Im disapointed about is that both our familys love to go sledding...and together, we never did.
But I've learned from my relationship & breakup with Jon and then Jeff...what I want and expect out of a realtionship. People say you usually date or find interest in guys that remind you somewhat of your dad which was true in both relationships. But thats besides what I was talking about...
and im done here...just had that on my mind and i have nothin else to do.