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The more I think about it....the more my heart tells me that me and Jeff arent supposed to be apart. This time it feels realistic about Jeff in my future...you just get that feeling...that vision.
...hearing over and over again how much my family misses him....it makes it worse...cause he had 4 other people that cared a lot about him
Natalie -going crazy-
"Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feelin' that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight [god i miss that so much]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
That's right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinkin' lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me, I'm in love with you, baby
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Everytime we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me
and you miss me
And you love me, I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm fallin' so deep for you crazy over for you
I'm callin', callin' out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
It's you and no other I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down"
dont call me stupid or crazy....if youve never really loved someone or even had a boy/girl friend for that matter...you have no room to talk
I wish I could have done things differently.
I hate the way emotions play with your head. It says one thing while your heart says another, while everyone else is giving you their opinions...
nothings ever simple
Thinking of the times of him coming over and getting sucked into Madden 2005, eating all the shrimp :), talking to my parents, jokin with my sisters, helpin my dad out, plying around with my lil cousins [hes GREAT with kids...yea you wouldnt get that just by lookin at him] him stayin the night, stayin late, drivin him home.....and not to forget about the times with his family including the 4th of July at the park, riding in the back of Nathans truck in the Dream Cruise, and spending the night at his sisters and brother-inlaws house with them all......going to the football games, me getting close to his mom, emailin her, playing with Destiny, going back to Jeffs after the games......going out to Hooters !....i mean...the one thing we didnt get to do was go sledding together...and we both love to sled....we both share a TON in common and also both are left handed which we thought was funny[ill never forget that one moment in the summer]. We just had this awesome connection and I just pulled the plug. I should have talked about it to him rather than pushed and pushed for an answer. I just felt like in someway I made a BIG mistake. I know we both needed time but I think that times up. I just wish I could get up the guts to actually call him <---stupid huh......8months of not being afraid to call and all-a sudden...no go. I think im just afraid of being rejected from him. I wish he knew how sorry I am.
I wonder if he still cares....wonder if he still even thinks about me...about US...