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So I had an odd dream/nightmare about my ex and I getting married. He and I were at like a amusement park/ resort, very disneyland like, we were getting married there. A bunch of my family was there, though they were really just random dream people, not IRL family. I don't know why we were getting married but I know that neither one of us was happy about it, I don't recall us even speaking to each other in the dream. I can't remember the rest but all I know is the marriage did not happen, thank zombie jesus.
Seeing my dad and Rocky<3 this week. My mom keeps pressuring me to go live with my dad for awhile. Problem is he lives with Ray (girlfriend<3), Ray's daughter, her 3 boys, and her new baby. And like I'm a private person, single child, I am not sharing a room with little boys or a baby, nor am I sleeping in a living room. I simply cannot live like that. I'd get to see Rocky more often but yeah, I don't think I'm being prissy by wanting to be comfortable in my living space. But I haven't seen their place yet so we'll see how this visit goes as I'm staying with my dad Thursday-Saturday afternoon.
I miss Rocky and just being near him and his touch, I really didn't like having Tom touch me all that much as he was ALWAYS trying to feel and grope me when we would just sit and watch tv or something. And I fucking hated it, I felt so violated when he did it. I tried to explain that to him and HE would get upset when I was the one being hurt.
Anyways.
Seeing my dad and Rocky<3 this week. My mom keeps pressuring me to go live with my dad for awhile. Problem is he lives with Ray (girlfriend<3), Ray's daughter, her 3 boys, and her new baby. And like I'm a private person, single child, I am not sharing a room with little boys or a baby, nor am I sleeping in a living room. I simply cannot live like that. I'd get to see Rocky more often but yeah, I don't think I'm being prissy by wanting to be comfortable in my living space. But I haven't seen their place yet so we'll see how this visit goes as I'm staying with my dad Thursday-Saturday afternoon.
I miss Rocky and just being near him and his touch, I really didn't like having Tom touch me all that much as he was ALWAYS trying to feel and grope me when we would just sit and watch tv or something. And I fucking hated it, I felt so violated when he did it. I tried to explain that to him and HE would get upset when I was the one being hurt.
Anyways.