I want to reboot my life.
Like millions of people, I work on a computer most of my day and sometimes well into the night. Every so often the computer begins to run a bit slow. Or it may not like a certain file, folder or song or the art program with all of its bells, whistles and colors just has no more memory to give.
Whatever the reason, sometimes I have to reboot. This reboot is crucial. I have to shut down, wait several, well something like at least 30 seconds and turn it back on. Why? Because, like most of us would, if given such tasks it needs to regroup. Refocus. Reorganize its files and begin from the start over again.
In fact, I had to reboot my computer about five minutes ago. And I found myself being jealous of it. As I sat waiting on the sign-on screen to appear allowing my entrance back into this secret world of whirls and gigs, I silently sat and wished that I had a reboot button for me. That I had a way of just pushing the button, three fingers on Ctrl-Alt-Delete and shutting it all down to then to automatically start up fresh, ready to go again with the whirls and gigs.
How does one reboot their life without a button?
Before I pushed the supplied button for reboot, my computer companion was running slow and just didn’t seem to want to do what I was asking by the tap of my fingers. I needed it to work for me but instead it was working against every stroke of my hand. This was surely a technical wrestling match that I wasn’t going to win so I just took my chances and hit the button….reboot.
While I sat here waiting for the return of the bright blue screen and the chance to enter through that secret password door I thought about how my life begins to run slow, the fight I have fought each day, the creativity, the work, at times I can make it through but there are times it will begin to crawl, begin to get confused, and of course it begins to lose memory.
How does one reboot their life without a button?
I can’t imagine that the idea of rebooting one's life is an original thought of my own and I am quite sure the comparison is not new. I’m not breaking new ground here but I have to say it sure sounds like a grand idea.
Now would it not be great if I could just shut it down for a reboot so all my life files can fall gracefully into correct order, so that I could defrag and freshen up. I could in fact delete certain life files, those I care not to look at ever again, reboot to a clear mind and a fresh start. Those files that need to be uninstalled would be gone in a flash but would they really? I could change the time and mark up the date. I could open a dialogue or listen to a new song.
These life-files my life-files that are all fragmented each in the wrong place are just like the computer I just pushed the reboot on. Here they are in their confused state where they cause me to struggle, I run slower and slower until…nothing works correctly.
Yeah, I do think that rebooting would perhaps give me a better ability to accept the changes in the colors of my world. To step out on faith and create a new file with wants and desires, to overcome my fears, to unleash my creativity, harness my power. With my brushes and paints in hand I step toward the canvas I call my life. Does it really need a fresh new look, a fresh approach, or defrag of information?
How does one reboot their life without a button?
The bright blue screen appears once again like clockwork. Which name are you today it will ask. Without a second of hesitation I click “the gURL” and enter my secret code. Suddenly the blue screen jumps to life.
Who are you it has asked. I am “the gURL” I type and if these files could speak they would tell all my secrets, show all my colors, and share my pain. This is my life, my colorful life, the secretive yet marvelous technical world. All better now, faster and fresher and full of memories. Whirls and gigs and files in a row.
Keep up with the writing, the chronicles of life as I live it each day.
I will just keep my own reboot button to myself for now.
Reboot me?
It just sounded like a grand idea.