I Hate Christmas
Buh Humbug
I hate christmas. Its a time for prople to celebrate. To have fun. To get drunk just coz. For people to consume themselfs with immaterial crap that we dont really need. What did I get for christmas? a chocolate car, and some vouchers. The vouches are being spent on shit that i actually need. Yes i need smokes. Fuck off all of you who say i dont. I do. So get fucked. What did i want this christmas. To have a happy one. But then again. Why would i want to be happy. I've been fucked over and over this year by so many different people, and i miss. So much. Just being able to roll over and hug the one you love. To be honest. I cant say how long its been since i did that. If you had asked me this 12 months ago. I would have said yes. I did, No questions asked. But this time last year i was happy. I had a reasonably good job (even tho i hated it. It was a good job). I had a nice car. And i was surrounded by people that cared about me. What do i have now. A place of my own. Half a pack of smokes. And renees cat. While she is off elsewhere. The only thing i want is someone to be with. Someone that cares about me as much as i do them. Someone i can trust. And tell anything. Someone that i dont have to bite my tounge around. Someone that gets me. And gets all the fucked up shit i've been through. Someone that i can roll over to and have them hug me. Just cause. Is it really that much to ask. Really?
This week has been a fuck of a week. Mum and renee have had an altercation. So shes now living with me. Mums side of the family is hell pissed at me as a result. Cause. Oh i forgot. Renee came here so i'm the bad one. Looking at the possibility (enevitibility) of getting a 3 bedroom place with a mate. So that will be good.
Anyway. I have a date with a bottle of red. Maybe i can pass out and forget this whole christmas.
Josh
I hate christmas. Its a time for prople to celebrate. To have fun. To get drunk just coz. For people to consume themselfs with immaterial crap that we dont really need. What did I get for christmas? a chocolate car, and some vouchers. The vouches are being spent on shit that i actually need. Yes i need smokes. Fuck off all of you who say i dont. I do. So get fucked. What did i want this christmas. To have a happy one. But then again. Why would i want to be happy. I've been fucked over and over this year by so many different people, and i miss. So much. Just being able to roll over and hug the one you love. To be honest. I cant say how long its been since i did that. If you had asked me this 12 months ago. I would have said yes. I did, No questions asked. But this time last year i was happy. I had a reasonably good job (even tho i hated it. It was a good job). I had a nice car. And i was surrounded by people that cared about me. What do i have now. A place of my own. Half a pack of smokes. And renees cat. While she is off elsewhere. The only thing i want is someone to be with. Someone that cares about me as much as i do them. Someone i can trust. And tell anything. Someone that i dont have to bite my tounge around. Someone that gets me. And gets all the fucked up shit i've been through. Someone that i can roll over to and have them hug me. Just cause. Is it really that much to ask. Really?
This week has been a fuck of a week. Mum and renee have had an altercation. So shes now living with me. Mums side of the family is hell pissed at me as a result. Cause. Oh i forgot. Renee came here so i'm the bad one. Looking at the possibility (enevitibility) of getting a 3 bedroom place with a mate. So that will be good.
Anyway. I have a date with a bottle of red. Maybe i can pass out and forget this whole christmas.
Josh