I Just Wanna Live. . . .

[mixedup423]

There is wayyyyyy too much to talk about so im just gonna forget about it all lol. People who have been there know wut happened. I loved going to the studio w/ the boys and going to their show. They were sooo nice on New Years. The city w/ the girls was amazing i had soooo much fun ( thanks Ali). Hmmmm hungout w/ patrick always awesome! I think Kevin likes me hehehehe awww. uuugggghhhhh i dont really know wut else to say. OH i saw peter he came to see me. It makes me sooo happy to see and talk to him. Its like instant comfort. He always seems to be there at the right moment. Had a good long talk w/kim the last few nights through the morning. Im having some problems lately. I apparently hold too much in. I love being ignored! As Jenn says " yo fuck that nigga!" lol. . . . and ps i love Jenn and Dave awwwwww. Lately boys are in and out of my mind faster then i can remember their names. My mom called me a band hoe cute huh? lol. But im not into the band memebers its more their friends and their friends friends lol. But i cant seem to keep the feeling on them its like awww hes soo cute and im all goo goo gaa gaa then im like poof ok and im done. I give up chidz. I miss mel she is sick still and i have forgotten wut my blond friend looks like... well at least i remeber she is blond lol. I am soooo weird lately. I cant remember certian things and i cant seem to describe it either lol. Like i answered in the quiz last night im happy on the outside and sad on the inside. and its YOUR fault thats right YOU! lol just kidding ;) <---- (wink face). And i seem to be really angry like all grrrrrrrr and im staying to myself but i need to break outta that before i get bad ( bad isnt good lol). Wow for someone who wasn't going to really write about anything i seems to fill up this w/ enough bullshit.

p.s im obcessed w/ HA's beating heart baby ( even tho the cd that someone made for me sucks cause it cut it out) and GC 's I just Wanna Live

So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

You, you want nothing to do with me
I, I don't know what to do with you
Cuz you don't know what you do to me

In spite of you
Even out of view
Still I love all of you
I do, yeah

You, you want nothing to do with me

New year same shit unless i take control and change things. . . be scared when you turn around and im not there. It will be the loneliest feeling you will ever encounter. Think about that and get back to me.....

hmmm maybe Kim's right and i am angry and hold too much in lol