It was going to go a lil' something like this.
I was going to be Mrs. Brittany McNair.
He was going to be my husband.
We were going to live together in college, along with Tanitha and Rude.
Him at FAMU.
Me at Florida state.
We were going to get married at 24/25.
We were going to have 2 children.
Our son, Jaylen.
Our daughter, we hadn't named yet.
We were going ot buy a house in Atl or Norfolk.
Happily.
That was our perfectly planned life.
Just the way I like it.
Planned.
But now.
I'm crying.
Why did I mess it up?
What was so great about that other guy?
Am I happy now?
I can't be.
Because of all the pain from Him.
He misses me.
I miss him more.
We hugged today, for the 1st time since then.
It was great.
It's why I'm crying.
I gave him up.
I'm so stupid.
He was going to be my husband.
We were going to live together in college, along with Tanitha and Rude.
Him at FAMU.
Me at Florida state.
We were going to get married at 24/25.
We were going to have 2 children.
Our son, Jaylen.
Our daughter, we hadn't named yet.
We were going ot buy a house in Atl or Norfolk.
Happily.
That was our perfectly planned life.
Just the way I like it.
Planned.
But now.
I'm crying.
Why did I mess it up?
What was so great about that other guy?
Am I happy now?
I can't be.
Because of all the pain from Him.
He misses me.
I miss him more.
We hugged today, for the 1st time since then.
It was great.
It's why I'm crying.
I gave him up.
I'm so stupid.