dammit!!! grr idk confused....

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yesterday was all fine and dandy..then i got a call...got mad...talked to friends...cried...got confused...thought...cried...cried some more...my best buddy chris tibbals helped me stop crying...and so did travell...went and took a shower...went to bed...cried myself to sleep...got a call from him this morning..got even more confused...cried some more..got off the phone...calmed down...put on some make up to try and cover up how nasty i looked...didnt work too well...punched the wall...came online..wrote this..so much more i could say..dont feel like it...why?...how?...i thought he cared...i still dont know what to do about this...do it or dont?...i'll think some more and most likely cry some more...and for what?..idk...im dumb...im stupid...im nieve...just plain retarded and gullible..
all over a guy...wow im gay!
real gay
and dumb
and stupid
and everything i said above b-4
w.e i gotta go to church
God may help me out here..hopefully...
~Reina Megan Proft