[theatrical_muse] 'cause what's left to lose? [and if i fail then i gave it a shot]

Jun 16, 2007 01:09

Warning: Spoilers for Season Three of The Office

I have this thing where sometimes when I answer the phone after a long day at work I sometimes say "Hello. Dunder-Mifflin. This is Pam speaking." If that gives you any idea of how much work effects my life.

I never saw myself working at a paper company or in reception but working at Dunder-Mifflin has been my life for, um, a couple years now.

I don't know, does anyone ever really see themselves working at a paper company? I mean, I'm sure there are some kids out there who have been really passionate about paper from an early age on, but I wasn't really one of them. I'm not sure too many people are.

Maybe Dwight.

Um, one thing I do like about paper, I guess, is it's good to draw on. I'd probably be doing something like cave paintings if not for paper. So, I guess I'm kind of an artist too and not just a receptionist. I did have a art show earlier this year - well, a collected art show with all my other classmates - but I learned that I have a lot of improving to do. The majority of people I invited didn't come, mostly my co-workers, so it was kind of a let down. Anyway, Michael - my boss - really liked this sketch I did of the Dunder-Mifflin building, so it's now hanging on the wall beside his office.

I guess, I've done a lot of growing this year. I did this thing where I was more open and honest. I spoke out a lot more. A lot of things. I used to be afraid of speaking my mind and I would think about what other people might think of me, but now it doesn't really matter what they think of me because I think I'm pretty cool myself. Oh, that sounds lame. You hear people say that sort of thing all the time, but it is kind of true.

I'm kinda talking a lot about office life so I'm trying to think about personal life things. Um, I was engaged last year too. And the year before that and the year before that and - Well, it was a very long engagement and not at all like the movie A Very Long Engagement, which seems like it would be very tragic if it was. I don't know. I fell asleep during the subtitles. Anyway, I was supposed to get married June 10th to Roy, but, um, I ended up not. I got cold feet a couple days before and, I don't know, I had to break it off. Which was hard, you know, breaking off a really long relationship that's been an intricate part of my life, but it was the right thing to do for both of us. Jim was kind of a part of that, in a way. Not really, but kind of. It was just more of this... eye opening experience, one that he was involved in. - No, he was the reason. Despite a lot of reasons to call off my wedding, he was the only reason that mattered.

Jim Halpert is... - Yeah, wow, I don't know how to even start talking about Jim. I mean, he's a co-worker, but he's a lot more than that too. Everyone's really a lot more than their jobs. Like Angela. Angela loves cats and has an aversion to the color orange currently. It used to be green but now orange is kind of whorish. There's Dwight and Dwight is awesome. Dwight is really special. It would be pretty crummy if we were defined by our jobs. Or not. But, Jim, I have a date with Jim.

Rules against office romances can suck it.

Muse: Pam Beesly
Fandom: The Office
Word Count: 724

theatrical muse, intro

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