inventions
i invent telephone conversations when i fear the process of dialing, the nervous and always too loud and too far away sound of the ringing, the answering machine, i fear the machine most of all, i would never leave a message.. but if i invent a telephone conversation for myself, to help me sleep, to hold my sick little mechanical heart, then maybe i will feel better, "hi its me" " hi i am sorry i am always at a loss of words, especially when starring at a wall speaking to no one" "hi" "i want to see you" "hello" "show me what is inside your head" "show me things that will ease my fear of saying too much to you" "hi, its me, tell me this is not just spring" "tell me you suffered as well" "tell me anything" "tell me there is more to this" things will be okay, erik says the fire is there and i believe him because he shows me whats inside his boxes, tells me about illuminated, and notices when i lighten up, and why i lighten up, he tells me who makes me lighten up, and i believe him