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omg. im done. so done. i have never had so much pain and discomfort in my entire life. 36 weeks now. it seems the weeks go sooo much slooowwwweeeerrr now. i just want to be done with this. i had some contractions last night. but nothing regular. i go to the dr. in a little less than an hour. im hoping and even praying a little (who, Julianna???) that this child will just decide shes ready and make her grand entrance to the world. im hurting so bad. just achy everywhere. my pelvis feels like its just gonna snap. i am walking reeeally slow today. much slower than usual. i dont know what that means....maybe nothing. hopefully something. this girl is wiggling all over right now as i type this. its funny....
theres nothing really to describe the way it feels. a lot of ppl say butterflies...but really...these are some MASSIVE butterflies! literally the only way to explain the way it feels...is it feels like there is someone inside of you kicking you! hah....pretty deep huh? shes more active than jadynn for sure.
speaking of...this girl. man...shes a diva. she has an attitude like you could just NOT believe!!! it makes me laugh sometimes....but at the same time....its so NOT funny. and im sure other people dont think its that funny.....but she cracks me up. she talks like a teenager. i swear we argue like shes already 16. scary huh? the other day she asks me for money to take to school. i said...what on earth could you possible need money for at PRESCHOOL?! and she goes...oh come on mom...just a buck! i was like WHAT?!?! oh come on mom. what is that!? she called diego a moron the other day! i mean...what 4 year old says moron? she did NOT get it from me by the way. she got it from school. that one didnt make me laugh tho. i dont let her get away with all that so dont worry.
*sigh...
shes my mini friend tho. i love that girl. i cant wait til i have this other one. i hope we can have the same thing as i have with jadynn. shes my everything really. its funny how you grow to love your kids. and i mean that in such a truthful way. when their born...you have love for them...but its almost like a task. you know you have love...but all they do is eat/sleep/cry/poop/etc. so you dont really know what part you love. does that make any sense? but once you start to see the personality come out....and when you see things they do that is just like YOU....its even better. you really feel like...wow...this is MY kid...i MADE her. im the reason she is here....im the reason she is the way she is. it kind of goes both ways tho...cause when they act like a little brat...you think...damn....is that from me? no way...its her dad. :P
anyways....i love her. and its hard to imagine loving someone else the same. but we'll see wont we? til later
theres nothing really to describe the way it feels. a lot of ppl say butterflies...but really...these are some MASSIVE butterflies! literally the only way to explain the way it feels...is it feels like there is someone inside of you kicking you! hah....pretty deep huh? shes more active than jadynn for sure.
speaking of...this girl. man...shes a diva. she has an attitude like you could just NOT believe!!! it makes me laugh sometimes....but at the same time....its so NOT funny. and im sure other people dont think its that funny.....but she cracks me up. she talks like a teenager. i swear we argue like shes already 16. scary huh? the other day she asks me for money to take to school. i said...what on earth could you possible need money for at PRESCHOOL?! and she goes...oh come on mom...just a buck! i was like WHAT?!?! oh come on mom. what is that!? she called diego a moron the other day! i mean...what 4 year old says moron? she did NOT get it from me by the way. she got it from school. that one didnt make me laugh tho. i dont let her get away with all that so dont worry.
*sigh...
shes my mini friend tho. i love that girl. i cant wait til i have this other one. i hope we can have the same thing as i have with jadynn. shes my everything really. its funny how you grow to love your kids. and i mean that in such a truthful way. when their born...you have love for them...but its almost like a task. you know you have love...but all they do is eat/sleep/cry/poop/etc. so you dont really know what part you love. does that make any sense? but once you start to see the personality come out....and when you see things they do that is just like YOU....its even better. you really feel like...wow...this is MY kid...i MADE her. im the reason she is here....im the reason she is the way she is. it kind of goes both ways tho...cause when they act like a little brat...you think...damn....is that from me? no way...its her dad. :P
anyways....i love her. and its hard to imagine loving someone else the same. but we'll see wont we? til later