sick again...
i have a cold again. it was okay to be sick when i was not working. but i had to call out yesterday and today thus delaying the end of my "trails" and pushing back the time when i can actually start working and making money.
arghhhhh.
and in general i am not sure how i feel about this job. i hate the getup i have to wear - button up shirt, tie and vest. i feel like a sausage. not cute. not comfortable. and the money is not as great as i would have suspected. today i sent my resume to a few other places. maybe i will still look. i still have to possibility to show up to a first training for bar milano. and i could stop by this other place that posted on craigslist.
and in other swirling thoughts, i keep thinking about moving out of nyc. last year portland topped the list. now i keep thinking about warmer climates. i want to not be wearing a heavy coat and to see things blooming. i want a yard for ziggy and myself. i want a life that feels easier than new york. often i am not sure what keeps me here. i love the people who i know but i don't take advantage of most of what is here.
i wish all the phleghm would leave my body.
arghhhhh.
and in general i am not sure how i feel about this job. i hate the getup i have to wear - button up shirt, tie and vest. i feel like a sausage. not cute. not comfortable. and the money is not as great as i would have suspected. today i sent my resume to a few other places. maybe i will still look. i still have to possibility to show up to a first training for bar milano. and i could stop by this other place that posted on craigslist.
and in other swirling thoughts, i keep thinking about moving out of nyc. last year portland topped the list. now i keep thinking about warmer climates. i want to not be wearing a heavy coat and to see things blooming. i want a yard for ziggy and myself. i want a life that feels easier than new york. often i am not sure what keeps me here. i love the people who i know but i don't take advantage of most of what is here.
i wish all the phleghm would leave my body.