Two steps forward, one step back
g'ah!!
I'm going insane! >.< Pent up inside with nothing to do.
Plus I'm starting to submerge my personality again. The wilder parts of it anyway, which is a good deal of myself.
I've actually forced myself to become submissive. o.0 It's... bizare and stuff. Being someone different.
I figure though if I make my outside the way that is more acceptable to society and to being successful in soceity then my insides will follow suite. Hardest part is the being docile bit, well not really docile. I am a very willful person and dislike being told what to do. To the point of being rebellious occasionally and such. So the hardest part is not being that way, burying my temper and such and maintaining placidity.
Quite simply I am far too wild and I must take it upon myself to tame myself. I believe that all parties will be far happier with the results then if I continued attempting to hash out the real personality of me, as frankly the real personality of me can be a real bitch sometimes.
That saying of the best of friends and the worst of enemies and such. I am both extreme's in one and sometimes at the same exact time. ^.^
Currently it's a trail period to see how this personality fits with my life, and the theory of being an adult. Should it not work out than it doesn't work out, and should it work well I won't be quite the same at AFO as I was at Metrocon.
mm... anyway, work was uneventful. Have two days off starting tomorrow. I totally dislike having days off in the middle of the week because it throws me off completely.
I'm going insane! >.< Pent up inside with nothing to do.
Plus I'm starting to submerge my personality again. The wilder parts of it anyway, which is a good deal of myself.
I've actually forced myself to become submissive. o.0 It's... bizare and stuff. Being someone different.
I figure though if I make my outside the way that is more acceptable to society and to being successful in soceity then my insides will follow suite. Hardest part is the being docile bit, well not really docile. I am a very willful person and dislike being told what to do. To the point of being rebellious occasionally and such. So the hardest part is not being that way, burying my temper and such and maintaining placidity.
Quite simply I am far too wild and I must take it upon myself to tame myself. I believe that all parties will be far happier with the results then if I continued attempting to hash out the real personality of me, as frankly the real personality of me can be a real bitch sometimes.
That saying of the best of friends and the worst of enemies and such. I am both extreme's in one and sometimes at the same exact time. ^.^
Currently it's a trail period to see how this personality fits with my life, and the theory of being an adult. Should it not work out than it doesn't work out, and should it work well I won't be quite the same at AFO as I was at Metrocon.
mm... anyway, work was uneventful. Have two days off starting tomorrow. I totally dislike having days off in the middle of the week because it throws me off completely.