*sigh*
Todays been such a depressing day...
Last night I went and layed down at like 5 and fell asleep, but was quickly awoken by my cousin Morgan, because 'she was bored.' Couldn't the woman see I just wanted to sleep? Obviously not...-_-';
So I woke up and we watched the American Pie Band Camp movie she got me for christmas. It was pretty freakin halarious... really sweet too. It sucks none of the original chracters are in it (Alyson Hannigan, Jason Biggs)... well... I guess it does have Eugene Levy in it... whom I love :3
But she finally left, about 11 or so... and I made me mom help hook up the internet in my room... so now I never have to leave again, except for piss and food breaks. Though... at the moment I have no cable to my television... but I think my moms gonna fix that tonight.
But, I never went back to bed. I played around on the computer for the longest time, and finally put in a movie. War of the Worlds. Which is kinda scary... and kinda sad... made me cry it did... >.>
FINALLY, after ALL day of worrying, Rachel texted me around 2:30 in the morn. we talked for awhile over text messages... and then I fell asleep about 3:30... When I woke up (about 10:30) the first thing I did was text her back. We did that for a little while... for a couple hours I think... untill my thumb started cramping... and my period cramps got the best of me... I MEAN, they were hurting LIKE A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I told her just call me later, and I went to make myself lunch.
I heated up x-mas leftovers, and took some medicine for my horrible cramps, went to watch TV... after I ate, I layed out on the couch and watched one of my favorite movies, The Notebook... I kept crying a lot, and eventually fell asleep... I slept till about 2 when me memaw and some other family came...
Then I moved to my room and slept till 4:30.
I woke up a few times, and every time I did... I cried...
I can't keep from crying... Everytime I'm awake I have to cry... why? I miss Rachel... A LOT.
I miss waking in her arms, I miss being held... I miss hugging and kissing her, I miss touching her, I miss joking and laughing with her... I just miss her... I wish she was still here... I wish she hadn't have ever had to leave...
She told me shes gonna try to come see me for Spring Break... and then again over summer break. In order to do this stuff she needs a job, and save money... so I hope it motivates her enough to do so...
It'd be great having her stay all summer with me... and then I'd get to see her (or she could go with, depending on how long she stayed over the summer) when I go to Madison in August.
Why am I going to Madison in August?
Because me dad has decided to be a kick ass parent and take me to the 2006 World Championships!!! For people who have no fucking clue what that is, its DCI. In other words, a band nerds, like me, dream come true! DCI is short for Drum Corp International... they are the BEST FUCKING MARCHING BANDS IN THE WORLD! ^_^
hehe...
BUT, whichever way, I hope to see Rachel again soon... because as I've quickly come to realize... I can't live without her...
Last night I went and layed down at like 5 and fell asleep, but was quickly awoken by my cousin Morgan, because 'she was bored.' Couldn't the woman see I just wanted to sleep? Obviously not...-_-';
So I woke up and we watched the American Pie Band Camp movie she got me for christmas. It was pretty freakin halarious... really sweet too. It sucks none of the original chracters are in it (Alyson Hannigan, Jason Biggs)... well... I guess it does have Eugene Levy in it... whom I love :3
But she finally left, about 11 or so... and I made me mom help hook up the internet in my room... so now I never have to leave again, except for piss and food breaks. Though... at the moment I have no cable to my television... but I think my moms gonna fix that tonight.
But, I never went back to bed. I played around on the computer for the longest time, and finally put in a movie. War of the Worlds. Which is kinda scary... and kinda sad... made me cry it did... >.>
FINALLY, after ALL day of worrying, Rachel texted me around 2:30 in the morn. we talked for awhile over text messages... and then I fell asleep about 3:30... When I woke up (about 10:30) the first thing I did was text her back. We did that for a little while... for a couple hours I think... untill my thumb started cramping... and my period cramps got the best of me... I MEAN, they were hurting LIKE A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I told her just call me later, and I went to make myself lunch.
I heated up x-mas leftovers, and took some medicine for my horrible cramps, went to watch TV... after I ate, I layed out on the couch and watched one of my favorite movies, The Notebook... I kept crying a lot, and eventually fell asleep... I slept till about 2 when me memaw and some other family came...
Then I moved to my room and slept till 4:30.
I woke up a few times, and every time I did... I cried...
I can't keep from crying... Everytime I'm awake I have to cry... why? I miss Rachel... A LOT.
I miss waking in her arms, I miss being held... I miss hugging and kissing her, I miss touching her, I miss joking and laughing with her... I just miss her... I wish she was still here... I wish she hadn't have ever had to leave...
She told me shes gonna try to come see me for Spring Break... and then again over summer break. In order to do this stuff she needs a job, and save money... so I hope it motivates her enough to do so...
It'd be great having her stay all summer with me... and then I'd get to see her (or she could go with, depending on how long she stayed over the summer) when I go to Madison in August.
Why am I going to Madison in August?
Because me dad has decided to be a kick ass parent and take me to the 2006 World Championships!!! For people who have no fucking clue what that is, its DCI. In other words, a band nerds, like me, dream come true! DCI is short for Drum Corp International... they are the BEST FUCKING MARCHING BANDS IN THE WORLD! ^_^
hehe...
BUT, whichever way, I hope to see Rachel again soon... because as I've quickly come to realize... I can't live without her...