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grandma is moving to oklahoma in late march. befor our birthdays. i dont understand the reasoning but its her choice. every one else will follow including my mom and baby brother in late june early july. i dunno what they think im doing. i guess they are assumeing i cant make it and will follow. a fresh start does sound nice. but ditching what little friends i have doesnt. besides i dont have great people skills and making new friends there would be hard as hell. i mean lately i have gotten better at talking. but there is still alot more room for improvment. im not interesting and cant relate with people easily so i run out of things to say fast. trust me id like to talk. its just hard. staying out here would be so much fun. id be on my own. be a man i guess haha. but id miss my family. ive never been apart from them for a long while. its a part of growing up but i dont want to have to deal with it. i guess its time for some major debating. ive got a little over half a year to make up my mind.