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I was overcome with a certain kind of...peace I guess is the way to describe it, yesterday. And suddenly I felt like I should be thanking her. I mean really, she must have forseen problems I did not and acted accordingly. She chose the lesser of two evils. I don't want to know how much this would have hurt if, months down the line, she realized she didn't feel the same way and called it off. I've still gained experience from this whole thing as short as it was, and it really was still enjoyable up until that day so really what is there to be sad about? Good experiences, was saved from a debilitating amount of pain in exchange for a large amount, and one of my fears which shall remain nameless has been thrown from me forever. She's going to be happier, our friendship will no doubt be stronger once she's done feeling awkward about everything...it's win-win in a way. I mean, there's still a slight pang of pain sometimes, but it's more of an after-effect shock wave. So yeah, good times. Sorta.