PGSD

[mithrill]

I have been blown away by my own ability to feel numb towards the supposed stresses of "the real world". I don't think it exists and somewhere deep inside of me I have refused to accept anything as important or real that threatens this strange uphoria I have discovered. Everything is fine. I can do anything I want. Who cares if its absolutely irrational to think that I can afford not only the money, but the time to go visit my friends and family in New York this October? I'm gonna goddamn do it because I am so afraid of not doing ANYTHING I want to, simply because of this job and money prospect. Doing the things I want to do, and spending the time with those who are important to me are way atop my mountian of priorities, and who the hell is anyone to come along and say that's wrong? I pity anyone who is too afraid to realize that they could die tomorrow and never get the chance to do what they want to do, let alone if they feel the need to judge me for saying, "you know what? I HATE business, and infact I CANT STAND THE CONCEPT OF MONEY!! And NO I don't really care about making it, but its somehow necessary in this shallow fearful world to do the things i want to do.... but wait WHY THE HELL ARE SO MANY PEOPLE DOING EXACTLY WHAT THEY dont WANT TO DO?" Let God be my witness if ever I submit to doing some kind of work that I don't give a shit about while letting it keep me from doing the things I want to do.

That said.

Tara discovered an actual syndrome called Post Graduation Stress Disorder, or fondly known as PGSD. Apparently mine comes out in forms of anger. (see above)

Here's a funny blog about it:

http://www.smithappens.com/archive/000139.html