Ramblings
Just when I thought I'd gotten my life fairly well back together, it falls apart again. Guess I used mud instead of mortar...
I've started working out with Josh and Emily. My body hurts a lot right now, but by the end of the summer I'll be thinner and healthier. I just have to stretch and work the knots out after each lift day.
I've settled into a duldrum at work. I go in 3-4 days a week, generally the same shifts, with the same people. Things are changing a little bit, with Kaylee leaving and two new servers in the past few weeks being hired. But I highly doubt the duldrum will change simply because of a couple new faces.
I need to stop living in my head and do something with my life. I'm going to school for something I think I like, but I'm not sure I wanna finish it. I can't seem to find motivation for anything these days, unless someone tells me to do something. Even then, I often have to be coerced into doing it.
I did something tonight that was probably a mistake, and I'm not sure I can fix it. Shouldn't matter too much, it'll be over mid-August anyway.
Sometimes I think I should just get away from everything. Just pack up some shit and leave. Go live alone, away from civilization, and maybe I can get my head on straight. Or maybe I'll just end up getting killed by some creature.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore, and it scares the shit out of me...
I've started working out with Josh and Emily. My body hurts a lot right now, but by the end of the summer I'll be thinner and healthier. I just have to stretch and work the knots out after each lift day.
I've settled into a duldrum at work. I go in 3-4 days a week, generally the same shifts, with the same people. Things are changing a little bit, with Kaylee leaving and two new servers in the past few weeks being hired. But I highly doubt the duldrum will change simply because of a couple new faces.
I need to stop living in my head and do something with my life. I'm going to school for something I think I like, but I'm not sure I wanna finish it. I can't seem to find motivation for anything these days, unless someone tells me to do something. Even then, I often have to be coerced into doing it.
I did something tonight that was probably a mistake, and I'm not sure I can fix it. Shouldn't matter too much, it'll be over mid-August anyway.
Sometimes I think I should just get away from everything. Just pack up some shit and leave. Go live alone, away from civilization, and maybe I can get my head on straight. Or maybe I'll just end up getting killed by some creature.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore, and it scares the shit out of me...