Tonight I am the beautiful let down

[mitchum]

No one has to read this. I am not trying to get sympathy. I just need to vent. As you all know I am a cook at Locos. And work was bad tonight. The only thing good that happened all night was when I left. I don't remember the last time someone ever yelled at me until tonight. I don't feel the yelling was necessary, but since the yeller's head is bigger than my big weiner (and that is pretty big), and he is such a "bad A" at everything in the world, I guess he felt it was necessary. I did not know what to say, and I don't remember what I said. I did not yell back. Like I said, I did not feel the yelling was necessary. I just think I'm too ignorant and unexperienced to work as a cook with these people, especially this jack ass. I must say, I don't like this guy, but I really want to be his friend. But he just does'nt seem too open with me which really sucks because we have to work together. He makes me feel and look like an idiot, and I hope that makes him feel good about himself. I really do.

I am too vulnerable to the humiliation, and I feel I have really been a let down. I am such a slow learner. It's already 3 AM. I have to be at work in 7 hours. In the morning and the rest of the day, I am praying for a miracle that I do well.