Life......
Life..... Growth, intelligence, development, maturity. Some of the things I'm having trouble with. I'm having a really hard time finding out who I really am. Someone please help, I want to be the smart kid, who still has friends and knows how to party, but there really hard to do at the same time. As of right now I am grounded for something I could have easily prevented but I've decided to sleep in class, not do homework, and most of all blow off school. I was trying to be cool acting like I didn't give two shits about school or my future I just wanted to party and have an easy going life. But now im paying for it. I need to get my head on straight, stay awake in school, do the little things that are so easy to accomplish and just finish them they will help in the long run. Now my licence is basically out of the picture unless I bring my grades up which I fell will happen because im going to devote my entire life to school (not that I have much of one anyways while im grounded.). but there are a few more things that are blocking my mind from school. Girls. Girls. Girls. They're stuck in my mind, I cant stop thinking about my future, who do I want to be with, who do I want to take to homecoming, but im to scared to even ask its ridiculous. I have no problem talking to them as friends but when it comes to a relationship I puss out.
And the friend situation isn't getting any better people are still fuckin with me because they want to show off in front of their friends. Im gettin so depressed I almost fell like screaming on the top of my lungs sometimes. But i am making a lot of new "nice" friends, they are pretty cool, but the friends i have now shouldnt mess with me so much, I understand making fun of someone once for a little laugh. i do that all the time but its constant bashing on me and i don't appreciate it.
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone?
And the friend situation isn't getting any better people are still fuckin with me because they want to show off in front of their friends. Im gettin so depressed I almost fell like screaming on the top of my lungs sometimes. But i am making a lot of new "nice" friends, they are pretty cool, but the friends i have now shouldnt mess with me so much, I understand making fun of someone once for a little laugh. i do that all the time but its constant bashing on me and i don't appreciate it.
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone?