i HATE cingular...
and i moved on...so a good thing and a bad thing. 1st cingular cut off my phone...cuz my dad in egypt didn't pay the bill *alledgedly* and that blows....and then i officially moved on. and the funny thing is, after i moved on, i found the one thing that really made me think of this guy. the charm to a necklace he bought me that i thought my sister had lost when she was messing with it, and then i found it and i was like "woooooah" and it was crazy cuz i saw it and i just felt like, well...i'll keep it cuz its pretty but then i just put it down and moved on. i guess i am kinda growing up...*sigh* lol yeah so i'm kinda melodramatic...but you gotta love it. moving on was probably one of the best things to happen to me. this heartbreak...i lived through it. i guess having to deal with so much pain and anger and hurt. i can only take so much. its crazy what you find...and then me and rae had like a breakthrough last night. lolol...we were talking on the phone and then we realized how much we really care about each other. and he confided in me that he was scared cuz he had never felt this way about anyone before. and i wish that i could say the same, but i knew it wasn't true. i mean rae wasn't my 1st love...and he knows that but he is someone who is incredibly special to me. i can't wait to go home and see him. that'll be a great moment. just to hold him in my arms and just look him in the eyes, feel him hold me close and kiss me on the forehead...lol...and just tell me that no matter what, we're gonna make it and we are gonna be great together. we were talkin and i was like "baby...you do realize that we are the power couple of 2007, right?" lol...i was like, we are the will smith && jada pinkett smith of our county. lmaoooo...that's my baby and i thank him soooo much for just staying by my side and being true and believing in me like nobody else. and knowing that deep down inside, i am strong and that no matter what we're gonna make it. *sigh* happiness is sooo hard to find...but when you love life, it loves you back!
~LyLy~