Jan 11, 2012 10:35
in my scaredcrow dream
when they smashed my heart into smithereens..
this week and the last week.. well
horrible weeks. i had no will
no wish no energy no lifesource
to do anything although i had to do so much
i took my last ritalin pill on sunday
and it was the best working day i had in quite a while
so i decided
to have drugs for breakfast today..
maybe i'm just a better person like this
or maybe i just like to think that
it's psychological and i know that
and i'm not even sorry to be honest
and you can think whatever you want
but i'm not going to find excuses or make some up
and i'm not going to talk about everything that's going on right now
you can judge all you want.. or maybe i'm speaking to myself as well..
but whatever the FUCK brings me through the day
i am not sorry.
took a car downtown
and took what they offered me..