uplifting experience
After studying my Journal here, I managed to piece together where I'd been living untill I was captured.
atleast I assume, but when I consittering that the last parts before I dissappeared wern't exsactly lucid, so could be I turned myself in. I quite sure my trinity of tormentors, did some things to my mind. now the question is what did they do?
I feel better, better than I've remember ever feeling... ofcause I don't remember of anything, but for the past two weeks.
But my mind feels strange clear and calm, I have strange dreams though.
I case a person, I'm quite sure it's Grae, but I can't see his features and everytime I catch him, he comes apart like smoke and drift away. and something lurks in the shadows of my dreams, not just the ones with Grae. coiled, waiting. I can't see it, but I sense it.
But what I really wanted to relate, was that the real reason I wanted to find out where I was living back before the white rooms and pain, I wanted to find the people I held dear, the woman and the boy.
It took a while, but I managed to track down the address and waited around, until the woman, Kristen, the study of this Journal has revealed her name to me, went to work.
half an hour later, David, the boy, left for school
I dearly wanted to just confront him, but what if he didn't remember me, what if we wern't friends any more, I could hardly bear the thought of that and even worse, what if it all had been something I'd imagined, what if he didn't even know me.
So lost in this dilemma, I didn't even realize, I was standing more or less directly in the patch of him. his quiet voice gently eased me out of the whirlewind of thoughts that was threatning to burst my head.
"Mist?!" he was looking at me wide eyed.
I could come up with nothing better to say than "yes David, it's me"
for a long moment he just stood there and looked at me, then he threw himself at me and hugged me fiercely. I was rather suprised to realize that I hugged him back without even giving it thought.
After he'd wiped his eyes, I followed him to school answering all of his questions to the best of my knowledge. which wasn't much, but seemed to satisfy his curiousity for now.
next week, he will have Fall vacation and I will spend more time with him.
I'm anxious
atleast I assume, but when I consittering that the last parts before I dissappeared wern't exsactly lucid, so could be I turned myself in. I quite sure my trinity of tormentors, did some things to my mind. now the question is what did they do?
I feel better, better than I've remember ever feeling... ofcause I don't remember of anything, but for the past two weeks.
But my mind feels strange clear and calm, I have strange dreams though.
I case a person, I'm quite sure it's Grae, but I can't see his features and everytime I catch him, he comes apart like smoke and drift away. and something lurks in the shadows of my dreams, not just the ones with Grae. coiled, waiting. I can't see it, but I sense it.
But what I really wanted to relate, was that the real reason I wanted to find out where I was living back before the white rooms and pain, I wanted to find the people I held dear, the woman and the boy.
It took a while, but I managed to track down the address and waited around, until the woman, Kristen, the study of this Journal has revealed her name to me, went to work.
half an hour later, David, the boy, left for school
I dearly wanted to just confront him, but what if he didn't remember me, what if we wern't friends any more, I could hardly bear the thought of that and even worse, what if it all had been something I'd imagined, what if he didn't even know me.
So lost in this dilemma, I didn't even realize, I was standing more or less directly in the patch of him. his quiet voice gently eased me out of the whirlewind of thoughts that was threatning to burst my head.
"Mist?!" he was looking at me wide eyed.
I could come up with nothing better to say than "yes David, it's me"
for a long moment he just stood there and looked at me, then he threw himself at me and hugged me fiercely. I was rather suprised to realize that I hugged him back without even giving it thought.
After he'd wiped his eyes, I followed him to school answering all of his questions to the best of my knowledge. which wasn't much, but seemed to satisfy his curiousity for now.
next week, he will have Fall vacation and I will spend more time with him.
I'm anxious