*sigh*
So.
I am addicted to Gaia. If I don't go on there I get all frustrated and worried. o.O I'm so fucked...
I wish I could die... life is getting overwhelming again... but it's my fault... partially... part of it was the party...I was so upset about the assholes there... and various things about my friends just pissed me off and I wanted to die...
I don't want to fall into depression again... as much as I hate the idea of pills and psyches, I hope the appointment I have on Wed helps... I'm so afraid of what I might to if I don't get some help...
I don't want to go to my art classes anymore... now that I've convinced myself that it's not the right feild for me all I can think about is how well I'm doing in computers and how much I'd rather be taking a computer course...
*sighs*
I feel a little better now... I should post on LJ more often... it's useful. And I miss it.
<3
I am addicted to Gaia. If I don't go on there I get all frustrated and worried. o.O I'm so fucked...
I wish I could die... life is getting overwhelming again... but it's my fault... partially... part of it was the party...I was so upset about the assholes there... and various things about my friends just pissed me off and I wanted to die...
I don't want to fall into depression again... as much as I hate the idea of pills and psyches, I hope the appointment I have on Wed helps... I'm so afraid of what I might to if I don't get some help...
I don't want to go to my art classes anymore... now that I've convinced myself that it's not the right feild for me all I can think about is how well I'm doing in computers and how much I'd rather be taking a computer course...
*sighs*
I feel a little better now... I should post on LJ more often... it's useful. And I miss it.
<3