Chigau Boku ga Iru ~ There's Another Me
'Sup, LJ.
Haven't been on this thing in ages, per usual. So it's always kind of odd looking back to it. But this time around, it's actually a bit disorienting. Not in a bad way or is "disorienting" bad by default?, just like... I feel like I'm in a different place comparatively. And I know the person who wrote the entries in this here journal is me, duh, but yeah. Maybe it's just part of that growing up phenomenon thing or whatev. LJ!Me and right now RL!Me are like incongruous parts of the same puzzle, I guess. If that analogy even makes sense outside of my head. Like a border piece and a way in the middle piece. Something like that.
In some ways, I feel more adult. I mean, I'd hope so. I'm at the latter end of the 20-something spectrum now. It's mostly when I'm tending to the family, working, trying to find some lit mag that I have any chance of getting published in -- and preferably getting some moolah for, too -- and dealing with some lol ~*~feelings~*~. A lot of it too I think is that I haven't indulged my what are culturally perceived as "childish" -- emphasis on that disclaimer -- hobbies. I dropped out of my last RP games a year and a half ago, though I try to do little memes here and there. I haven't picked up an animanga or comic/cartoon series in a while either. None of these due to lack of interest. I still enjoy RP and drawn media. I guess the other life stuff's just taken up more of my time and energy.
But at the same time, I feel like such a kid, especially in contrast to how old I am in years, because there's so much I haven't gone through and experienced. In some ways, I feel like I don't know anything at all. Maybe it's that perpetual quarter-life crisis thing I'm in. Dunno. It's weird reflecting on it or something. Whatevs.
Metrocon season's rolled in again, which means Fire Show practices and such. Hopefully performance nights'll be good. Stuff in my acts that's new and I'm not 100% at -- but even with stuff I'm good at I don't feel completely strong at, so lol -- so I guess there's some bit of worry. Not like overwhelming, just that I hope I do as well as I have in shows past. Fingers crossed, ha ha!
Sis, Beni, and Koko left for a family vacation an hour or so ago. Hope they have all the fun in the happiest place in the world hint hint ^.~. It's just the cutest thing to me when they do stuff together, and they haven't had a proper vacation in a while. And well, it's NBA Playoffs season and the Finals start today, ha ha. (GO HEAT!!!) Dad and I'll be watching, of course, so family times on our end of the spectrum, too. ^.^;;
I put on eyeliner today after finding it in my toiletry pouch and figuring eh, why the heck not, just for funsies. Never wear makeup outside of performances, dressy occasions -- and not always then, either, ha ha -- or interviews. Didn't look too bad, but I'm a nut and kept touching my eyes, and somehow I'd smudge the liner residue on my fingers in odd places like my shirttail. Remember the part about still feeling like a kid? XD
Aiight. Think I'm done schpeeling now. Prob shouldn't bother tagging my entries tl;dr anymore since I always go on and on when I post here after being away for like ever, but going to tag it anyway, lols.
Haven't been on this thing in ages, per usual. So it's always kind of odd looking back to it. But this time around, it's actually a bit disorienting. Not in a bad way or is "disorienting" bad by default?, just like... I feel like I'm in a different place comparatively. And I know the person who wrote the entries in this here journal is me, duh, but yeah. Maybe it's just part of that growing up phenomenon thing or whatev. LJ!Me and right now RL!Me are like incongruous parts of the same puzzle, I guess. If that analogy even makes sense outside of my head. Like a border piece and a way in the middle piece. Something like that.
In some ways, I feel more adult. I mean, I'd hope so. I'm at the latter end of the 20-something spectrum now. It's mostly when I'm tending to the family, working, trying to find some lit mag that I have any chance of getting published in -- and preferably getting some moolah for, too -- and dealing with some lol ~*~feelings~*~. A lot of it too I think is that I haven't indulged my what are culturally perceived as "childish" -- emphasis on that disclaimer -- hobbies. I dropped out of my last RP games a year and a half ago, though I try to do little memes here and there. I haven't picked up an animanga or comic/cartoon series in a while either. None of these due to lack of interest. I still enjoy RP and drawn media. I guess the other life stuff's just taken up more of my time and energy.
But at the same time, I feel like such a kid, especially in contrast to how old I am in years, because there's so much I haven't gone through and experienced. In some ways, I feel like I don't know anything at all. Maybe it's that perpetual quarter-life crisis thing I'm in. Dunno. It's weird reflecting on it or something. Whatevs.
Metrocon season's rolled in again, which means Fire Show practices and such. Hopefully performance nights'll be good. Stuff in my acts that's new and I'm not 100% at -- but even with stuff I'm good at I don't feel completely strong at, so lol -- so I guess there's some bit of worry. Not like overwhelming, just that I hope I do as well as I have in shows past. Fingers crossed, ha ha!
Sis, Beni, and Koko left for a family vacation an hour or so ago. Hope they have all the fun in the happiest place in the world hint hint ^.~. It's just the cutest thing to me when they do stuff together, and they haven't had a proper vacation in a while. And well, it's NBA Playoffs season and the Finals start today, ha ha. (GO HEAT!!!) Dad and I'll be watching, of course, so family times on our end of the spectrum, too. ^.^;;
I put on eyeliner today after finding it in my toiletry pouch and figuring eh, why the heck not, just for funsies. Never wear makeup outside of performances, dressy occasions -- and not always then, either, ha ha -- or interviews. Didn't look too bad, but I'm a nut and kept touching my eyes, and somehow I'd smudge the liner residue on my fingers in odd places like my shirttail. Remember the part about still feeling like a kid? XD
Aiight. Think I'm done schpeeling now. Prob shouldn't bother tagging my entries tl;dr anymore since I always go on and on when I post here after being away for like ever, but going to tag it anyway, lols.