I've been especially distracted this week. It's near impossible for me to focus on one thing before drifting off someplace else mentally. Guess it's because a lot's been going on, and I kind of feel like I'm just floating from one thing to the next without feeling like I'm there experiencing what's happening. Something like that. Teal dear my life. Again. Sorry. -.-;;
Did my last shift at Muvico this eve/morning. Yay midnight Iron Man 2 shifts. >.<* It was a busy shift but luckily short enough to not make me turn disgruntled concessionist who puts too much ice in their cups and doesn't fill their sodas all the way to passive-aggressively tell customers, "Hey, you could've gotten more soda if you ordered the refillable Iron Man 2 cup for only a dollar more, lamer." I was already kind of sentimental because it was my last day, but it made me sadder because no one I was close to -- by my lol asocial standards -- was working with me. I also forgot my thermos so I couldn't snag some free icee for the road, and for some dumb reason that upset me. Chalk it up to wishing things went more my way on my last day. At least I got to chill with my
Muvico boyfriend, so that was good times. XD I know Muvico was just a minimum wage job, but it was still my first -- yeah, I was pretty sheltered. Now that I'm done, so's a(n overdue) chapter of my life.
Which leads to the big thing eating up my time: career job hunting. It's become a bigger concern now that I'm out of work and I've been done with college almost a year now. I hate getting e-mails from my alma mater that ask me to update them about my postgraduate life because it's embarrassing to have to tell them, "I'm shoveling popcorn for $7.25 an hour while I still try to figure out how to get my foot in the career door." So my resume's up on several websites, and I've been getting messages from interested companies, but few of them are in my line of career interest. Why so many insurance sales jobs, Hotjobs and co.? Job research and interviewing is draining. Whenever I get back from an interview, it's hard to get myself to do anything else productive. My last interview was with The Nielsen Company for a Survey Writer job that sounds pretty engaging, so crossing my fingers that works out. Otherwise, it's back to the job boards.
So if I do get a job anytime soon, I'll have to juggle a lot of my time between that and Metrocon practices. I'm going to be part of the Chessmatch and Fire Show this year. Honestly, I'm still surprised I got in at all. At Chessmatch auditions I couldn't use the weapons worth crap, and my partnered improv bit devolved into my character suggesting she, her friend/my partner, and the friend's boyfriend get into a love triangle. OTL During my Fire Show audition, I totally messed up my last trick. I was sure that was all the judges would remember. But I got in both, somehow. Miraculously. So that's going to take up most of my weekends and a weeknight. I'm excited, but it's going to be lots of work and tiredness.
RP is kind of... not in a good place. I'm only in
paradisa with Shinobu (
seasonofsamurai), but I've been falling behind on my activity since February. I always manage enough threads to cover me, but I can tell threading isn't going to save me for long. I'm at a creative standstill and it sucks because
once upon a time I was good at playing her. And I feel bad for being in such a RP rut because a bunch of people suggested me games during
app_this_plz, but I'm just not feeling involved or confident in my RPing right now. A break from RP altogether would probably be the best thing, but I'm terrible about dropping games, haven't gone without being in one since I started LJRP, and I'm feeling a little like, "OMG what am I going to do without RP alsdjflasdjfsdf? D:" Blaaaaah, creativity blocks suck.
Okay. Done pretending I can be coherent at 4:24 a.m. O.o;;