hazy lazy days
ahhhhh, 1 hour in the middle of the lake on my kayak...does life get any better? trying to forget that i have a million things to consider, think of, remember, worry about, cry about, scream about, stress about, laugh about (stress) etc....
sometimes, can real life just go away for a little?
not for long, just a little. Then i could be free to let my imagination run wild..maybe i could write again. (i suck but i enjoy it) normal hobbies hold no joy anymore..even reading books is slipping away and that is scary.
not depression, just getting overwhelmed. i am neck deep and sinking into lifes little sandtrap. and, i no longer have the outlet of a beer or mixed drink to relax due to i am a cow feeding milk to my young.
arrrg...sad thing is, it started pouring when i was on the lake and i didnt care. if felt good to feel.
sometimes, can real life just go away for a little?
not for long, just a little. Then i could be free to let my imagination run wild..maybe i could write again. (i suck but i enjoy it) normal hobbies hold no joy anymore..even reading books is slipping away and that is scary.
not depression, just getting overwhelmed. i am neck deep and sinking into lifes little sandtrap. and, i no longer have the outlet of a beer or mixed drink to relax due to i am a cow feeding milk to my young.
arrrg...sad thing is, it started pouring when i was on the lake and i didnt care. if felt good to feel.