A whole lot of whoey
I feel like I should update...so less of "I want to" and more like "I should be keeping track of my life". Hee hee. Anyway, what, back to work at the good ole PAC. The first day was fairly depressing and draining just because I'm not sure I like working with high school girls (can't say I mind the guys because I just don't get along with most girls anyway, except for the select few that read my journal, love all you guys to death). All we did pretty much was clean and that's not really why I got into that job. I'm not a janitor...fuck, they make more money than I do and I end up cleaning up after them.
I went back to the apartment momentarily just to move a few things in and see what Ali fucked up. It's the little things now that piss me off to no end. Apparently she asked Katie if she could have a key made for her boyfriend and Katie said ok but she didn't ask me. Now, I don't know if she had the key made already but if she did then she's a whore. Personally he's already over there too much for my taste but the last thing I want is him there more often because he has a key. Apparently he got used to it over the summer because they made Katie give her keys to him (basically she didn't have a choice because Ali said that if she didn't they were going to leave the doors unlocked...what a bitch). Anyway, the little things she did was move all my food off my bottom shelf so that they could put a box of gold fish crackers there...what else...oh yeah, and this didn't happen to me but I'm still pissed because it shows how inconsiderate she is...her and Pat apparently slept in Katie's bed all summer (because it's bigger than hers) and didn't even ask her if they could use it...just moved it back when they were done. Whatever, I'm through letting her walk all over me...this year is hopefully going to be different in the fact that I'm going to grow some balls and tell her to fuck off when she's being completely unreasonable.
Wow...I'm amazed at how many people have hooked up. Everyone has boyfriends and girlfriends it seems. Kyle got one (which is why he has been too busy to write to me apparently) and some of my other friends got significant others...I sit here on my ass, single as hell and wondering when I'm going to find someone who satisfies my standards. Not really lonesome I don't think...I just crave the love ya know? I've decided that I'm really going to try to walk a nice straight line this year and not do anything with anyone until we have a nice enforced title. Something along those lines at least...but making out is soooo fun! :) I've been doing a pretty good job so far because Steve hasn't bothered to call me back or ask me to hang out. In fact, after the wedding I sent him a thank you card and I didn't hear back from him until about a week ago. He's not really working at the PAC much anymore because he's got a job working at a liqour/wine store (go figure).
I'm excited about moving back in and getting a start on my classes. I want to read more this year, recreationally I mean. I have a few books on my list already but I'm going to be so busy I'm not sure I'm going to have any time. I get so motivated to do things when I can't do them and then when I actually have the time I lose all my motivation and all I want to do is sit on my ass and watch tv or just relax. It feels so good sometimes to just sit there and stare off into space. I did do some painting today. We're painting the ceiling in the game room black. It's going to be interesting and I'm wondering if my mom wouldn't like to do some other interesting things. I'm going to run some ideas by her later.
I can't remember what I really wanted to say now. I've been typing all this small talk bs and I can't remember what it was I signed on her to write. Ah well, happens a lot. I miss everyone at school and I'm really looking forward to what I think will be a great year. I know this sounds stupid but I'm going to read my taro cards and see what is in store for me. They are incredibly accurate which is why I don't do them that often because it's nice to have some surprises. Not to mention, I only like to do it under certain circumstances when I can really concentrate and I don't get that opportunity very often either.
Oh, now I know what I was going to say. I've been thinking a lot about my guy friends that now have girlfriends and I'm really happy for them but I'm also sad because I feel like there are things that we did that we won't be able to do now. Me and Brian had this one night where we just laid side by side and listened to Ani Difranco for a few hours. When I left for the summer I was really excited about coming back because I thought that me and Kristen and Kyle would turn into the three musketeers and have a great time but now that he's got a girl it's going to be different. I don't know...I know I can stil be friends with these guys but it's going to be different and although different can be good, I'm not ready for things to be really different. I mean, gosh, we're approaching the age when we find the one and then we get married...I'm not ready to lose my friends and be the only single one left (I mean, I know it's not going to be like that but it sure as hell feels like it sometimes). I'm making this sound sad and it's not meant to be sad. The memory of me and Brian was really happy. That was so cool and I hope that I find someone someday that will just putz around with me and listen to music. It reminded me of you too George. I hope you're doing well by the way. You haven't posted in a while but from what I've read when you were talking about Carmen you sound like you're happy and I'm glad.
Anyway, I'm totally stoked about some of the things I've done lately. I feel like I'm really taking care of business and myself. Aside from having money I'm going to all my doctors just to catch up, taking care of my car and my phone rebates, making sure everything is ready for school and just improving my relationship day by day with my mom. It's incredible. We had a great relationship to start with but I feel like everyday I get closer and closer to her.
Alright, I think I could go on forever but this is long enough. Hope everyone is doing well. I miss school and I'm ready to be stressed again...I'm ready for the heartburn etc. etc. ;)
I went back to the apartment momentarily just to move a few things in and see what Ali fucked up. It's the little things now that piss me off to no end. Apparently she asked Katie if she could have a key made for her boyfriend and Katie said ok but she didn't ask me. Now, I don't know if she had the key made already but if she did then she's a whore. Personally he's already over there too much for my taste but the last thing I want is him there more often because he has a key. Apparently he got used to it over the summer because they made Katie give her keys to him (basically she didn't have a choice because Ali said that if she didn't they were going to leave the doors unlocked...what a bitch). Anyway, the little things she did was move all my food off my bottom shelf so that they could put a box of gold fish crackers there...what else...oh yeah, and this didn't happen to me but I'm still pissed because it shows how inconsiderate she is...her and Pat apparently slept in Katie's bed all summer (because it's bigger than hers) and didn't even ask her if they could use it...just moved it back when they were done. Whatever, I'm through letting her walk all over me...this year is hopefully going to be different in the fact that I'm going to grow some balls and tell her to fuck off when she's being completely unreasonable.
Wow...I'm amazed at how many people have hooked up. Everyone has boyfriends and girlfriends it seems. Kyle got one (which is why he has been too busy to write to me apparently) and some of my other friends got significant others...I sit here on my ass, single as hell and wondering when I'm going to find someone who satisfies my standards. Not really lonesome I don't think...I just crave the love ya know? I've decided that I'm really going to try to walk a nice straight line this year and not do anything with anyone until we have a nice enforced title. Something along those lines at least...but making out is soooo fun! :) I've been doing a pretty good job so far because Steve hasn't bothered to call me back or ask me to hang out. In fact, after the wedding I sent him a thank you card and I didn't hear back from him until about a week ago. He's not really working at the PAC much anymore because he's got a job working at a liqour/wine store (go figure).
I'm excited about moving back in and getting a start on my classes. I want to read more this year, recreationally I mean. I have a few books on my list already but I'm going to be so busy I'm not sure I'm going to have any time. I get so motivated to do things when I can't do them and then when I actually have the time I lose all my motivation and all I want to do is sit on my ass and watch tv or just relax. It feels so good sometimes to just sit there and stare off into space. I did do some painting today. We're painting the ceiling in the game room black. It's going to be interesting and I'm wondering if my mom wouldn't like to do some other interesting things. I'm going to run some ideas by her later.
I can't remember what I really wanted to say now. I've been typing all this small talk bs and I can't remember what it was I signed on her to write. Ah well, happens a lot. I miss everyone at school and I'm really looking forward to what I think will be a great year. I know this sounds stupid but I'm going to read my taro cards and see what is in store for me. They are incredibly accurate which is why I don't do them that often because it's nice to have some surprises. Not to mention, I only like to do it under certain circumstances when I can really concentrate and I don't get that opportunity very often either.
Oh, now I know what I was going to say. I've been thinking a lot about my guy friends that now have girlfriends and I'm really happy for them but I'm also sad because I feel like there are things that we did that we won't be able to do now. Me and Brian had this one night where we just laid side by side and listened to Ani Difranco for a few hours. When I left for the summer I was really excited about coming back because I thought that me and Kristen and Kyle would turn into the three musketeers and have a great time but now that he's got a girl it's going to be different. I don't know...I know I can stil be friends with these guys but it's going to be different and although different can be good, I'm not ready for things to be really different. I mean, gosh, we're approaching the age when we find the one and then we get married...I'm not ready to lose my friends and be the only single one left (I mean, I know it's not going to be like that but it sure as hell feels like it sometimes). I'm making this sound sad and it's not meant to be sad. The memory of me and Brian was really happy. That was so cool and I hope that I find someone someday that will just putz around with me and listen to music. It reminded me of you too George. I hope you're doing well by the way. You haven't posted in a while but from what I've read when you were talking about Carmen you sound like you're happy and I'm glad.
Anyway, I'm totally stoked about some of the things I've done lately. I feel like I'm really taking care of business and myself. Aside from having money I'm going to all my doctors just to catch up, taking care of my car and my phone rebates, making sure everything is ready for school and just improving my relationship day by day with my mom. It's incredible. We had a great relationship to start with but I feel like everyday I get closer and closer to her.
Alright, I think I could go on forever but this is long enough. Hope everyone is doing well. I miss school and I'm ready to be stressed again...I'm ready for the heartburn etc. etc. ;)