hopefully today will be fun
anyways everyone is doing all of their halloween parties today and we will go to all of them (alex,me and,robyn) its a group thing like my church and alexs company nothing special and there is supposed to be a haunted house int he basement of the HHC building,alex will be dressing up like a barbarian if you wanna call it that (last minute costume stuff,not bad though) i as a fairy and my sister as something called black widow bride.....we will still be handing out stuff to trick or treaters this weekend though we are gonna give minibags of doritos and some candy (yay sams club) im such an insomniac cheesewhiz! ive been reading rickys journals and decided to get my own and when i was reading rickys journals i started to get really sad,because i realized i am not important enough to make an impact on anyones life and i feel so very forgotten by everyone not just ricky andi wonder if im missed? i try to cling to that possiblity as life up here is what it is (meh) im always asking alex if we get to come home in january (i hope)....i think waaay too much, but thats why i have OCD but im doing better thanks to my drugs. speaking of drugs alex takes ambien to go to sleep sometimes hes too funny but i don tlike it when i cant control his stupidity LOL (not saying i dont do dumb things we are only human but hes hi comeon!) he likes to rough house too rough and ends up dropping me or something and i get mad (only a little) hes such a silly boy i love him so much! well i really should get to bed now i have to...........