when all i ever did was sit around rachel choosing to feel bad. rachel acting in despair because she's looked for love in the wrong places so many times and now feels guilty for the sex she put herself through in her desperate search for it.
i'm not trying to insult you. i'm sure you find this insulting because nobody evers spells your own life out for you and it's all very shocking. but you deny yourself, and thus never even are fully aware of your own life.
you say you are glad to be who you are. when really you are only placing yourself in a place that says you're exempt from having to do anything for anyone or EVEN YOURSELF for that matter. saying that blinding yourself from your own impulsiveness is at least (however only immediately) satisfying enough that you haven't guilted yourself into suicide yet.
if you keep it up rachel, someday, the realization you always have may someday just hurt you so deep. soooooo deep, that the only resolution is suicide. you know this. i know you know it. that's why you got scared of cutting yourself after you cut yourself so deep. it didn't feel like suicide, but it showed you how easy it could be to take your own life.
when all i ever did was sit around rachel choosing to feel bad. rachel
acting in despair because she's looked for love in the wrong places so many
times and now feels guilty for the sex she put herself through in her
desperate search for it.
i'm not trying to insult you. i'm sure you find this insulting because
nobody evers spells your own life out for you and it's all very shocking.
but you deny yourself, and thus never even are fully aware of your own life.
you say you are glad to be who you are. when really you are only placing
yourself in a place that says you're exempt from having to do anything for
anyone or EVEN YOURSELF for that matter. saying that blinding yourself from
your own impulsiveness is at least (however only immediately) satisfying
enough that you haven't guilted yourself into suicide yet.
if you keep it up rachel, someday, the realization you always have may
someday just hurt you so deep. soooooo deep, that the only resolution is
suicide. you know this. i know you know it. that's why you got scared of
cutting yourself after you cut yourself so deep. it didn't feel like
suicide, but it showed you how easy it could be to take your own life.
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