It had to happen some time...
This year is the year of wrong, of bad, of negative, of hate, of sorrow, of despise, of everything that has not been for a long time.
I know there are some out there who will think I deserve whats going on in my head, but I'v had my karma for those things. So what have I fucked up this time?
Everying fucking morning I got up ready for work, I had passion, I had flare. I worked my god damned ass off for you people, I came in early and left late without pay. I went out of my way for customers and offered so much more than advice. I did EVERYTHING I was asked to do with 110%... but it wasnt good enough.
Nothing ever is.
No new job in sight. Nothing. No one wants me.
Friends have gone... probably for good this time. Even though I do my best.
Maybe I just shouldnt try anymore. After all, why bother trying for something when it just fucks off anyway. May as well not bothered with the effort.
So I'll play this little game. I'll not care. I'll not bother. But I know what it will get me.
More bad thoughts, more sleepless nights, more blood shed.
Because thats where I'm headed. To nothing.
Three fold doesnt apply here, more than three things have gone wrong.
No real point ending anything though, I dont feel alive enough for it.
I know there are some out there who will think I deserve whats going on in my head, but I'v had my karma for those things. So what have I fucked up this time?
Everying fucking morning I got up ready for work, I had passion, I had flare. I worked my god damned ass off for you people, I came in early and left late without pay. I went out of my way for customers and offered so much more than advice. I did EVERYTHING I was asked to do with 110%... but it wasnt good enough.
Nothing ever is.
No new job in sight. Nothing. No one wants me.
Friends have gone... probably for good this time. Even though I do my best.
Maybe I just shouldnt try anymore. After all, why bother trying for something when it just fucks off anyway. May as well not bothered with the effort.
So I'll play this little game. I'll not care. I'll not bother. But I know what it will get me.
More bad thoughts, more sleepless nights, more blood shed.
Because thats where I'm headed. To nothing.
Three fold doesnt apply here, more than three things have gone wrong.
No real point ending anything though, I dont feel alive enough for it.