I don't know.
Strange rant about my sexuality under the cut. Beware.
I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.
I love Matt to death. The boy is amazing. I never want to break things off with him. He's the one person I can really see myself being with forever.
I've only had one problem lately, and that it is that I have been wanting to be with a girl. And I don't mean in a relationship, really. Just want to makeout and screw around with a girl. I love Matt dearly, but there are so many things I haven't done, I don't want the only period of my life where I can do those things to be over. I don't want to be the yucky 50 year old at the club making out with people. I can see myself getting married to Matt, but I'm so young that I don't want to miss doing things I want to do, but that he doesn't.
I dunno. People who know me well know that I've had my uh...experiences with girls, and right now I really want that. I have no idea why. I don't want to end my long relationship either. Hm. There doesn't seem to be a good way out of this.
Kate and I went out tonight and had a good time. We talked about all of this, and she made a lot of sense. Rawr. I just need to sleep it off I guess.
xoxo,
Sarah
I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.
I love Matt to death. The boy is amazing. I never want to break things off with him. He's the one person I can really see myself being with forever.
I've only had one problem lately, and that it is that I have been wanting to be with a girl. And I don't mean in a relationship, really. Just want to makeout and screw around with a girl. I love Matt dearly, but there are so many things I haven't done, I don't want the only period of my life where I can do those things to be over. I don't want to be the yucky 50 year old at the club making out with people. I can see myself getting married to Matt, but I'm so young that I don't want to miss doing things I want to do, but that he doesn't.
I dunno. People who know me well know that I've had my uh...experiences with girls, and right now I really want that. I have no idea why. I don't want to end my long relationship either. Hm. There doesn't seem to be a good way out of this.
Kate and I went out tonight and had a good time. We talked about all of this, and she made a lot of sense. Rawr. I just need to sleep it off I guess.
xoxo,
Sarah