My friends or lack there of
Okay so I graduated thinking I was going to spend my whole summer hanging out with friends I wouldnt see again or atleast not for a long time, that or friends who I wanted to get closer to before I left...it seems all my friends like to make plans to make plans to hang out with me but no one will actually make plans...I have had friends who told me they would call me to make final plans and I have spent up to three days at a time waiting for my cell phone to ring because THEY SAID THEY WOULD CALL...or even better they talk about making plans with me then they make plans with someone else and tell me about it...."Oh so and so is over and we are hanging out..." Or the best of all...they found someone more important to hang out with...someone they have dedicated there whole life to...okay I know its a little tough because of the whole fact that I dont drive in all but I have capable people in my family who are willing to drive my cowardly ass around to go out...I dont see who people can talk about how fun I am to hang out with and oh how much they miss me but when we make plans to go out no one will commit...im just frustrated because im leaving in a few weeks and I want to know that the people I thought were my friends really were my friends...people always say "oh we will see each other over holidays" but if you guys wont even hang out with me now when we have weeks of free time I doubt I will be seeing any of you over holidays or ever...I dont want all of my friends to turn into those people you just pass in the mall and think "Oh there goes that girl/boy I used to know..." and you smile politely and both go your own ways...im venting mostly right now...that and I am lonely...I hate this